Shhhhssss

shhhhsssss,

Sit still,

Don’t make a peak,

Hear your heartbeat,

It is racing,

You are guard,

Waiting for it to happen,

Don’t carry on,

Just wait,

Fear will get you,

So don’t do anything,

Keep waiting,

For something 

That will never come.

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Coffee shop chill

I’m sat here in the coffee shop looking out the window watching the rain drizzle down in a race to get to the bottom. It is an early afternoon in October where it’s not cold but it’s not hot either but a jumper wouldn’t go amiss.

I sit here with my hands wrapped around a hot cup of coffee thinking about what to do with my free time. I don’t normally have enough a lot free time to do something on my own, so this is a luxurious for me. I shall indulge in this moment and enjoy it without the presence of guilt.

I can take my time to take it easy as there is no rush to hurry. I don’t need to do anything but enjoy this moment. I am going to sit here for a while and just soak up the atmosphere.

The place is quiet, all I can hear is the coffee machine bubbling  away whilst the chatter goes on in the background. I feel warm and relaxed sitting back reading my book. I feel safe and there’s music playing in the background, soft coffee shop type of music nothing that promotes any sort of emotional feelings towards it.

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 I’m just in this moment enjoying what I have, reflecting about what I could be doing but then not really bothering because it’s ok to do nothing. We forget in this day and age but it’s ok to do nothing,it’s ok to be lazy and just watch and listen and drink. Frequently you see strangers out of the window rushing about, not having a moment to stop and take note of life.

It is good to take a moment in life you just sit back and smelling  that lovely Lava Java coffee making sure your belly is all warm, happy and content knowing that there’s no rush to do anything. the only thing I have to worry about next is to think about what cake I would like what goes well with coffee maybe carrot cake or lemon drizzle simple choices simple boys I’m happy in this moment no demand no need I’m just sitting in a coffee shop by myself minding my own business and not worrying it’s good to be alive right here right now Peace by myself

Liberating

Today I decided change was here,

for once I felt liberated,

to let go of the past.

The time is now,

let’s evolve and go forth,

I can and I will,

I don’t need that extra help,

Keep being authentic,

if it is meant to be

it will be,

I am sick of worrying

about this and that,

things hold me back,

and it eats my motivation.

This is my turning point,

where I move forward,

and be the person I want to be.