Pain 

Hey readers,

My word of the week is:


because I received the letter from the DWP for a reconsideration answer for a request to look at my application again for disability benefit.

The answer was no and scored zero again. I even included a letter of support from my old CPN but it appears that they have sent out the letter two days before receiving my letter, I just don’t know I bother.

It is headache that I don’t really need and it’s making me feel crap. This is how it is now we have to fight for an appeal. my anxiety goes through the roof and I just don’t feel good knowing that I have to wait for the whole appeal process to happen which could take months.

This seems to be making my mental health worse, it just makes me so angry as I have worked so hard over the past couple of years to make small but big improvements.

I suppose I have to remind myself I am not alone and other people also have to fight. I just feel angry at the system which is meant to help the I’ll and disabled. but they have just let most of us down big time.

Cheers for reading X

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New

Hey readers,

My word of the week is:

because it is the new year, shiny and sparkly 2018! Happy new year to all my readers, let’s have a good one or just a week to get over the b***s**t!

I received as a present four tickets for me, hubby and the boys to go to the panatomine. Now, I haven’t been  before for a couple of reasons. 1. it is bloody expensive and 2. the times I thought about it was with my eldest but there was no way in hell he would spend ten minutes sitting down. He would be a nightmare and potentially run around everywhere.

So, this year we went to our local theatre and watched Cinderella (in all honesty I am envious that my mum who got me the tickets opted for herself tickets to see madness. I think she had the better deal of getting to seeing Madness tribute act. Which I am pretty sure both my kids would of enjoyed, lol).

Anyway, the boys still loved it as it was entertaining for them. Here is the thing that annoyed me when viewing the performance,  considering that it appeared that most of the audience was a younger then say 10 they said, ‘smash your face in’ and ‘stupid’ which I am not sure whether it was really appropriate, maybe it is, I don’t know. But for me I felt a bit uncomfortable that one of the actors said it to a six year old, now I have a six year old and lucky it wasn’t him because I  would not of been happy at all. Still, it was an experience and something different especially after the christmas climax.

Cheers for reading X

Over! 

Hey readers,

My word of the week is: 

because just like that Christmas is all done and dusted for another year. We had a lovely time at home with the boys. They loved getting new toys.
The eldest being autisitic struggled at the end of Christmas day. The reality of this is that he had a meltdown for three hours screaming, shouting, spitting, biting. This is the reality of living with an autisitic.
However, Boxing day was much perfered for him as there was no surprises and I focused on a routine for him so he felt safe. 

We now are working our way through building all the Lego! 
It also has been lovely to indulge in the food and I have eaten a fair few mince pies this week that I suspect that I may turn into one, haha! 
Hope you have had a lovely week,

Cheers for reading X

Tired 

Hey readers,

My word of the week is:

tired 2

 

It is the final week and like every end of term I am exhausted. I think my eldest is too and could do with a break from over thinking everything.

A positive for us this week is I got to see my eldest perform in his play and he even had two lines. He was dressed as a shepherd. He looks so sweet when on stage.

My youngest at nursery christmas had a  sing a long, which he absolutely loved as he love  Christmas songs. He is a massive fan of music and dance, he really puts his heart and soul into it.

Yesterday we made some cute and fairly simple reindeer cookies, which was fun because it got both boys in the festive period.

Now, all I need to do is get cracking on with all the wrapping, which we be mostly done tonight hopefully whilst watching The Last Leg.

Cheers for reading X

Festive 

Hey readers,

My word of the week is:

because we have been to see Santa at his grotto and went on a sleigh ride which the children adored and got us all in a festive mood.

Of course there was the snow at the weekend which the boys absolutely loved playing snow ball fights.

Then on Monday there was a lot of icicles on our balcony and my son spend a large portion of his time that day exploring them and cutting them up and what not. Then later on that day we went to see the Coca Cola truck and the Christmas tree festival in one of the local churches.

My eldest received his second beaver badge which was all about collection and he had to give a talk. My eldest has no trouble talking especially when showing  of his dinosaur collection.

So, overall a pretty damn good week for me.

Cheers for reading X