Milestone 

Hey readers,

My word of the week is:


because I got through another week, as someone who is going through a depressive episode this is an achievement. Small things at the moment are a real struggle and if I could I would stay in bed all day. I literally, have to egg myself to get up to do something such as getting the clothes washing done. People who have never experienced depression will never know the struggle, it really is a mental battle.

I am struggling financially with things when my income has changed as I now have no carers allowance nor do I have disability benefits. It is really tough and trying to muddle on is a challenge in its self. Trying to find the money for milk or paying for a school trip makes you feel the worst parent ever. Small things but they all add up. When you dread how you are going to pay for and look after your child whilst not getting in debt with the electricity is all fun and games.

Cheers for reading X

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Pain 

Hey readers,

My word of the week is:


because I received the letter from the DWP for a reconsideration answer for a request to look at my application again for disability benefit.

The answer was no and scored zero again. I even included a letter of support from my old CPN but it appears that they have sent out the letter two days before receiving my letter, I just don’t know I bother.

It is headache that I don’t really need and it’s making me feel crap. This is how it is now we have to fight for an appeal. my anxiety goes through the roof and I just don’t feel good knowing that I have to wait for the whole appeal process to happen which could take months.

This seems to be making my mental health worse, it just makes me so angry as I have worked so hard over the past couple of years to make small but big improvements.

I suppose I have to remind myself I am not alone and other people also have to fight. I just feel angry at the system which is meant to help the I’ll and disabled. but they have just let most of us down big time.

Cheers for reading X

Crap

Hey readers,

my word of the week is:

because after the funeral I got home and I received the dreaded Brown letter from personal independence payment to find out that I have zero points and suddenly my autism seems to have vanished.

This benefit helps me with my autism manage day-to-day life and now I have to go through the hell out of appeal.

When I went through the whole stress of the face-to-face assessment, on the day we recorded it because we knew that DWP had a bad reputation for lying and putting information down that wasn’t true. Well the report low and behold this is  riddled with with lies. We think the reason I scored 0 points on everything is because she didn’t like the fact that we recorded the meeting. I am so glad we did as it is going to help a lot with evidence when I finally do the appeal.

The stress has taken its toll on myself and my husband. Now my husband is really strong minded and calm and collected with everything. I know if he breaks down that were in serious trouble, which has happened more than once this week.

So, we’re going to fight this even if it takes months you can’t give up I will kill you.

Cheers for reading X