Stuck in a thought 

Don’t go hating me,

It is just in my mind, 

My thoughts

Want to lie to me,

Destroy me

One thought at a time.

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4 Ways that the Virginia Center for Addiction Medicine can help you

The need for mental health services is on the rise as there is more and more of the population that struggles to manage demons and issues that they cannot deal with on their own. The need for mental health services is critical and while there are government dollars going towards funding new programs and services for those affected by mental illness, many are still unclear as to how to go about getting help. This article will highlight some of the ways that the Virginia Center for Addiction Medicine, also known as AddictionVA, can help you get the treatment you need to be the best you.

Treatment centers can often help with more than addiction and we will point out some of the most common areas in which people seek treatment.

  1. Bipolar disorder. People with bipolar disorder are typically misdiagnosed by family members and friends as being “crazy.” The truth is that those that struggle with bipolar disorder experience a vast range of mood swings from manic highs to a dark, deep, depressive state. A wide range of emotions plays out with this disorder as one can go from being energetic while in a manic high to suicidal when in a low period. As you can imagine, living like this can be exhausting and cause for an individual to suffer with identity development or feeling as if they belong. You can get assistance and find coping strategies that are effective for your disorder by getting help at a treatment center near you.

  2. Depression. This common problem is not something to ignore as those who experience it benefit a great deal from getting the resources and help that they need. Depression presents itself in many forms but they all negatively affect a person’s overall happiness and quality of life. Counseling and other services can help an individual break through their depressive state and find strategies to live a healthier life.

  3. Anxiety. It is normal to experience feelings of anxiety from time to time or in a new situation. Anxiety can appear as nervousness on the first day of school or when you try something new. It can also appear in more severe ways such as feeling overwhelmed and highly stressed on a daily basis. Anxiety can cause individuals to feel that they are out of control or overwhelmed by the simplest of tasks. There are several different types of anxiety disorders but the most common are social anxiety disorder or panic disorder. No matter what type of anxiety your loved one is managing on a daily basis, their quality of life could be vastly improved by the services offered at treatment or therapy centers.

  4. Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. People who experience a disorder such as OCD may seem to be controlling, compulsive, or overly obsessed. Some examples of this include obsessive thoughts that lead to anxiety, fear of things such as germs or bugs, or doing repetitive behaviors such as washing hands repeatedly. Treatment can help your family member or friend learn strategies to control their obsessions.

Blog Therapy 

Hey readers,

Some days are really crap, you wonder how you are going to get through them especially when it is only 9:30 on the morning.

I am so tearful because I have reduced one set of medication. I know it is only a side effect and will be worth the pain in the long run. But right now it is a struggle especially when I am so needed during the summer holiday.

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I am not very good when people demand me for long periods of time.  For me being autistic it is mentally draining and a real battle. I need to switch off and sometimes I just need escape to my bedroom for some peace for five.

I feel a bit suffocated as well being in a flat and the weather being rubbish. I just haven’t got the motivation to anything when I am so tired.

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I feel so guilty for feeling tired when I should be on the ball but sometimes I question My ability to parent such as today. I know this is just short lived and because I am frustrated, that being said I have to battle with this thoughts.

I feel pulled into two ways to right my personal feelings as one side of me thinks I am being silly. The other side feels it is cathartic and may help someone.

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It is amazing how powerful words on and just writing down your thoughts can really help even if there is no solution. It is a bit like therapy and that is one of the reasons why I love to blog. As in real life I am rubbish at expressing myself to others. Words seem to get mangled up and I stutter and shut down. Again this is influenced by my autism.

So, that is why I turn to my blog as a place of comfort and release of emotions. I don’t feel judged and it is a place where I can freely right without having to worry about all the other social aspects involved when speaking verbally.

Cheers for reading X

Bringing up Georgia
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It’s OK to not be OK

Hey readers,

Today I wondered into town on a hot Saturday. The atmosphere was busy, people everywhere. Both things I am not very good at.

I appreciate that this is standard, I aimed to go to the supermarket to do shopping. I got half way there and had a funny turn. Don’t worry it is my anxiety based symptom. I have social anxiety and today it reminded me that it was there. I am not invisible, maybe a naive thinking I am better then I actually am when in reality some days are tough.

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I think sometimes I forget that being in recovery from mental health problems is a rocky road and it is not simply just black and white. It takes as long as it takes, some days are better then others. It may take years  to recovery or it might be something I have to live with and manage. I think as a person dealing with social anxiety it is really quite hard to remember that life isn’t linear and it is quite messy.

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It is so easy for me to put pressure on to get get to the end but sometimes you have to just accept the fact that you are not ok and you know what that is ok. I also feel when you discuss mental health with others who may not have experienced it or have a different experience to yourself their ‘helpful’ advice is really not that. They put their frustrations on you and there is so much pressure to ‘pull yourself together’.

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These expectations that you should instantly find a magic cure especially when you have a label as such you sense that patience runs so thin. People don’t see mental health like physical, ok mental health awareness has improved but not the acceptance. People thing by changing your attitude it will instantly get rid  it doesn’t work like that. It is something that you have to  constantly work at it and you can be so hard on yourself. You forget that it is your journey and some days are just rough. It is ok to say you know what today is a shit day, sometime we have them. I am going to say quite controversially that sometimes it can be good to have a bad day because it gives you change to reflect and appreciate the good stuff.

Cheers for reading X

Sticky Mud and Belly Laughs
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Social anxiety kicks in!

Hey readers,

Today I attempted to a volunteer place but totally failed at it and now I feel a fool. 

It was an admin role but it was in an open arena with different people at different desks etc. and I just felt overwhelmed, uncomfortable paranoia and anxious. 

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I was so anxious that I had a panic attack. I felt so claustrophobic in that room. Like a fish in a glass bowl and everyone was staring at me. It is the most horrendous and intense feeling ever. 

I just could not handle it mentally. I don’t do small talk and the things I think about to talk about are not appropriate. I think it is anxiety that does that. 

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I just could not handle it and just went into flight or fight response. I forgot how bad my social anxiety can be, I have not been in this type of social situation for a long time.

I hate myself and now I am beating myself up about it. I know when I have cooled down and talked sense to myself I will see it from a different perspective but right now, in this moment, I am really down and emotional.

I feel that my response and lack of ability makes me a bad person, incapable and a failure. For a brief second I was tempted to jump in front of a train. Don’t worry I won’t but I want to be frank and real. This is real life going through the motions. You have a warped view of yourself and what you ‘ believe’ others think. 

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I feel I am less of a person because I can’t do this role, because I view success on where I have a job or not and feel that what society views as a good person or parent. This message feels even more present currently through the media when we are heading towards the general elections. 

I feel I have let myself down and my children. Why can’t I accept that I am autistic and some things are hard? I would never, ever expect a person who is confided in a wheel chair to just get up and walk.  That does not stop me being so hard on myself because the stigma is still prevalent and I don’t in normal life discuss really autism because to be perfectly honest I am embarrassed and ashamed. I feel guilty and let down. I know you’re going to say I shouldn’t feel like this but I do and I have experienced people judge me so it is hard to change. Though on a positive note it is something I am working on, but it takes time especially when it damages you so emotionally. The treatment is still discriminator out there, people see mental illness or invisibility as a negative and something that makes you less of a person.

I think I am also scared with regards to autism as it was reported in the news that NHS are diagnosis less children with less severe autism. What next I feel like autism is misunderstood and I am scared for myself and others what the fortune holds. 

Cheers for reading X

diaryofanimperfectmum

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Dear Bear and Beany

Bubble

It’s this time,

that gets me,

when no one

is here,

alone,

without turbulence,

just me and silence,

I feel sane,

with no blame,

this is me,

in my bubble.