Periods after pregnancy

Hey readers,

I am on my period and it sucks physically and mentally. Each month it feels like hell!

Ever since I gave birth something happened to my biology and it impacts my emotional responses when I have a period each month.

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I feel like it is a battle mentally, I am a washed with dread. I am terrified and on edge. I feel like I am literally on eggshells, I break down at the slightest thing. I feel fragile and terrified. My adrenalin is so high and I can’t sleep which doesn’t add to the mix.
I am raging and want someone to give me concrete answers to such grey questions. I feel like I will always be like This and I get so angry because I want to run away from myself but I am stuck with me. I hate it and I get so jealous of the husband who is so carefree and relaxed. I hate anxiety, the way it torments me and makes my thoughts going into a fast racing mode. Why do I have to be like this, every fucking month? I hate it and I feel rubbish. I am non-stop shaking inside and out. I know the mood swings have got worse since I entered motherhood. Every month I am like this, there are times when I wish I could just rip out my womb!


If the emotional side of having a period was enough to deal with there is the pain that comes along with it too and again it is considerably worse. Before my first pregnancy, I would suffer mild cramps that I could manage with some paracetamol. Now, I want to cry from the pain in my stomach. I feel like someone has punched me in the vagina and every time I have a poo it reminds me of being in labour and pushing out a baby. I can’t lift my sons up as my back during the time of the month is so achy and feels like I have spent all day bend over when in reality I have done sod all.

I just needed to rant as I have had these for six years and if sucks being female sometimes.

Cheers for reading X


Hey readers,

My word of the week is:

Sometimes, if I am honest I can get overwhelmed before the half term as the prospect of having two boisterous children during the holidays fills me with dread. However, I have to say it hasn’t been too bad. The boys love playing together and not too many meltdowns. I have been relaxed and that makes a huge difference.

My eldest has made me his first ever cup of tea. He was so pleased because he has been so desperate to make me one. It was a lovely little surprise. Don’t worry he didn’t just do it himself but with assistance from his daddy. Then he was like I want to get a plain cup and he wanted to write with the sharpie pens ‘I love mummy and daddy’ and it was like an awwww moment, bless him!

Hope you have had a good week,

Cheers for reading X

Problems only bigger boobed women will understand

Hey readers,

I have a confession to make I hate my breasts because I am a size DD and the right pain in the back and not the fact that buying bras is a breast ache and having to get a bloody loan out to pain for them.

Here are my reasons why big boobs suck!

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1) They give you a backache and that kills, especially when you have to carry a child to bed in the evenings.

2) They are harder to the finder and then become more expensive.

3) No way would I suit a bralette, which is a shame as they are so God damn pretty.

3) I can’t run As the boobies bounce everywhere so I may as well kiss goodbye if I want to run after that bus and accept that I am going to be late 😉

4) The prospect of going bra shopping sends you into a sweat and there is nothing worse than trying to find a size that actually fits you in a ‘normal’ shop.

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5) You dream of having the funds for breast reduction.

6) The pain of a button shirt and constantly having a gap there. You can’t go out in public because you are scared your pop open.

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7) What do my toes look like?!

8) You thought it was bad enough until you get pregnant and then they grow some.

9) In the summer you have under breast sweat….joy!

10) I hate having to wear a swimsuit because it never fits right and has a major fear of my boobies pop out in the swimming baths.

11) Can never wear anything backlace.

12) Can’t wear low tops without looking like a s**t.

13) Never sleep on my stomach, I would never get any rest but pain.

14) I can never wear long necklaces because they make me feel self-conscious and worry they may go right in my cleavage.

Cheers for reading X

50 ways to do self care

Hey readers,

Sometimes life can be stressful or we don’t look after ourselves. A way to help when life gets on top of us is practice something positive to do for ourselves to help make sure that you as a person are cared for. Below I have gathered 50 ways to do self care, the activities are a mixed bag and some are free some may require some cash. Others don’t take long compared to other activities that can take longer. Therefore, there is plenty of choice for you to choose from to help you feel good and making sure that you DO self care on yourself. It is important to look after others but ultimately you need to make sure that you as an individual are in tip top shape. Enjoy!

50 ways to do self care

1. Bath

2. Read a book

3. Go for a walk

4. Talk to someone

5. Write a blog post

6. Have a hot tea

7. Watch something funny

8. Have a shower

9. Bake

10.Paint your nails

11. Take a photo

12. Have a sleep

13. Go to bed

 14. Write a letter to someone

15. Colouring in

16. Explore nature

17. Read inspiration quotes

18. Write an action plan to a problem

19. Burn a candle

20. Have a cuddle

21. Treat yourself

22. Learn something new

23. Stretch your body

24. Dance

25. Stroke an animal

26. Drink a glass of water

27. Sort out your emails

28. Sell something on ebay

28. Clean

29. Sort out your drawers

30. declutter

31.spend an hour alone

32. Go to a coffee shop

33. Visit a art gallery

34. Choose to have a good day

35. Be spontanous

36. Listen to a meditation

38. Forgive yourself

39. Get a massage

40. Get a haircut

41. Make a playlist of your favourite tracks

42. Look at cat gifs on the internet

43. Create a mood board

44. Do nothing

45. Practice breathing

46. Binge watch a box set

47. Watch a film

48. Browse pinterest for inspiration

49. Squeeze a stress ball

50. Snuggle under a throw

Cheers for reading X


Quiet is good because…

Hey readers,

The world we live in feels noisy, we have constant buzzing everywhere you look. In some cases it is good to have noise for distraction or entertainment. However, I believe that there is a time for everything and sometimes it is good to be quiet.

Sometimes, when it is quiet you can think more clearer and listen to your internal monologue. You can listen to the thoughts more clearer and given them more order.

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During times of quiet it is a great opportunity of productivity. With no distractions around allows you to focus and concentration on the job in hand. It means a better quality as you main goal is the one thing rather than having lots of noise in your head.


Being quiet when listening to others is really helpful giving the speaker a chance to express themselves and feeling that they are being heard can make all the difference to the outcome at the end. Even if they have no solutions giving the person that time to communicate without interruptions makes them feel as if something positive has been done and that they are heard.

It is good to be just in the moment and being mindful of everything around you, taking it all  and accepting what life has to offer and taking that time to disconnect.

"The quieter you become the more you can hear.” — Baba

When there is less distractions it gives you the chance to take your environment in. That is why meditation is good because it slows everything right down and allowing you to relax. It is important to focus on the present and slow down. It can help your health when physically or mentally because your are less tense and more in control. There is less  noise which equates to less thinking due to reduction in the information that gets into your brain.

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Even if you do five minutes a day of quite time it can give you the change to slow down and enjoy that moment.

Cheers for reading X