Tired

Hey readers,

My word of the week is:

TIRED

Because I am trying to adjust to my medication that makes me feel pretty lousy a,s it has a massive side effect of drowsiness. I am working on a system that works best for me and my body. It is still under working progress! I am just glad I have my husband as my registered carer or else I would be royally screwed.

One major additional pressure is that it is half term and there is constant noise, so many things to do and trying to juggle them all is an act in itself. Don’t get me wrong I do love having the boys around, it is just they have so much energy that it is exhausting to watch, haha!

Hope you have had a fab week!

Cheers for reading X

 

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Time

Hey readers,

my word of the week is

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What I mean to say about this is lack of time due to the fact that it is half term. As lovely as half term is it leaves me lacking time. I feel like I don’t have enough of it this week and feel a bit tired. It is exhausting work trying to entertain children whilst trying desperately holding on to your sanity.

I attempt to do a fun activity such as playing with Plasticine, nice little relaxing activity for my boys. Don’t be silly, I have never been so God dame frustrated in my life. I have to supervise to make sure everyone has got an equal amount, the same colours and sit in the middle making sure that it does not kick off. I don’t need to say anymore then my patience can run very thin.

This has what most of it has been like, seriously sometimes I question why I bother. Sometimes, it is much to turn telly on and deal with the crippling guilt of being the ‘slummy mummy’.

Roll on Monday where I can breathe and enjoy the silence without thinking that boys are next door planning on taking over the world.

Cheers for reading X

The Reading Residence

Half term tiredness

Hey readers,

Today I slept for so long, it was what I body so needed, time to rest my brain and body.  I feel like I need to have a break every now again and shut down to help me compensate for all the pain and work that I put it through.

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I think during half term school holiday I am working harder to socialise and be with others for longer periods of time. Don’t get me wrong I adore my children but being autistic it is challenging to spend so long with individuals.

I feel us autistic folk need time to hibernate and re-charge our batteries more than neurotypical people. I think one of the reasons is because I am working that harder to apply social skills that may not necessarily come naturally to me.

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Then there is the emotional side where I beat myself up over my shortfalls to ridiculous amount. One of the reasons because you can’t help but compare yourself to other random people, even though you don’t know through social media.

I always view my autism as a battle, something I have to get up and deal with every single day. On top of that I have to deal with the internal battle of low self-esteem and dealing myself as a parent.

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Most of the time I feel like I am blagging a this whole parenting thing and I put so much energy in to trying to function like everyone else  that I burn myself out, hence the breaks and shutdown.

So, that is one of the many struggles I have as an autistic parent, it is never easy but I am thankful for my blog. It is true what they say that writing things down may not cure my situation but it is a place to clear my mind of the many thoughts that are buzzing around in my head.

Cheers for reading X

Chesterton WindMill

 

Hey readers,

Near Leamington Spa (Warwickshire) there is a wonderful beautiful place to visit called Chesterton Windmill. It is a used windmill that is still open for people to visit and it is brilliant photography location.

It is free so it is fab place to take kids if they need some fresh air to run around and such alternative to explore with kiddliwinks. My boys loved it and enjoyed hearing about the mill and what it was used for.

The windmill is also situated in the beautiful Warwickshire countryside. There appears to be not many people come to visit, which are one hand is a shame but on the other is lovely and peaceful. You are not allowed to use drones, unless you ask permission from the farmer, which I think is fair enough.

The mill is in a field which you have to close the gate after so fairly safe for little ones and you walk up a short distance up a hill, nothing too painful.

Defiantly go check it out as it is stunning location like I have already stated above.

You can find more about Chesterton Windmill here.

 

Cheers for reading X

Liked and loved December

Hey readers,

This month has been fun with the lead up to Christmas and there has been lots of things to enjoy.

I have enjoyed not doing the school runs and the break from all the information/letters. Trying to remember all these things is hard so it has been lovely to have a step back and have a much needed rest.

I have enjoyed Christmas and self indulging. I have loved eating some lovely food and appreciate the fact I ma in a position where we can afford food and are safe. Especially around Christmas time you forget sometimes that other people may not be so fortunate.

We enjoyed visiting Santa and watching the magic of Father Christmas.

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I have enjoyed treating myself to some books in the sales that I have wanted for a while but been blessed with some money to buy them.

I have enjoyed the fog and darker nights getting cosy.

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Cheers for reading X

A Cornish Mum