Pain 

Hey readers,

My word of the week is:


because I received the letter from the DWP for a reconsideration answer for a request to look at my application again for disability benefit.

The answer was no and scored zero again. I even included a letter of support from my old CPN but it appears that they have sent out the letter two days before receiving my letter, I just don’t know I bother.

It is headache that I don’t really need and it’s making me feel crap. This is how it is now we have to fight for an appeal. my anxiety goes through the roof and I just don’t feel good knowing that I have to wait for the whole appeal process to happen which could take months.

This seems to be making my mental health worse, it just makes me so angry as I have worked so hard over the past couple of years to make small but big improvements.

I suppose I have to remind myself I am not alone and other people also have to fight. I just feel angry at the system which is meant to help the I’ll and disabled. but they have just let most of us down big time.

Cheers for reading X

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Beat the post Christmas blues

Hey Readers,

You know that feeling after Christmas when they climax can make you feel bleh and like nothing is exciting because it is all happened. Not to mention that you gained more pounds and lost some via the bank, sigh. So, I have looked at some ways to help feel less blue.

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With Christmas we have spend more time at home, indulging in food and sitting watching copious amounts of television. A change of scenery is good especially when it is out in nature and going for walks outside. It is a fantastic way to blow of them cobwebs and you really do feel tons better.

Since Christmas I for one have been so focused on dealing presents, food, entertainment that now I have got nothing to focus on. That is why making plans and doing something exciting can really help give you back that cest for life. It doesn’t even have to be something big, it could be just a walk to your local library and reading some new books.

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Of course a good way to feeling better is eating more healthy choices and reduce the amount of sugar laden food. You feel much better physically and mentally for it.

Sometimes, it is easy to get stuck in a pity party especially after all the excitement of Christmas has vanished. Sometimes just changing the way you think or looking at the things that you do have and being thankful really make you feel tons better.

Have you noticed that Christmas routine slips away, you relax and take it easy. You may have been really busy with social engagements so getting to a routine can help you feel so much better and a bit more in control.

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Obviously, we love a good drink or two, why not it’s Christmas. But now that Christmas is finished reduce the amount of alcohol will help you greatly, as alcohol is a depressant so can influence your mood hugely.

What things have helped you shift the feeling of post Christmas blues?

Cheers for reading X

Retarded 

I an meant to be 

More accepted in society.

I don’t though, 

I feel more retarded 

Each day. 

So much so that 

I wonder if 

It is better 

If I am gone.

Crap

Hey readers,

my word of the week is:

because after the funeral I got home and I received the dreaded Brown letter from personal independence payment to find out that I have zero points and suddenly my autism seems to have vanished.

This benefit helps me with my autism manage day-to-day life and now I have to go through the hell out of appeal.

When I went through the whole stress of the face-to-face assessment, on the day we recorded it because we knew that DWP had a bad reputation for lying and putting information down that wasn’t true. Well the report low and behold this is  riddled with with lies. We think the reason I scored 0 points on everything is because she didn’t like the fact that we recorded the meeting. I am so glad we did as it is going to help a lot with evidence when I finally do the appeal.

The stress has taken its toll on myself and my husband. Now my husband is really strong minded and calm and collected with everything. I know if he breaks down that were in serious trouble, which has happened more than once this week.

So, we’re going to fight this even if it takes months you can’t give up I will kill you.

Cheers for reading X