Over

Hey readers,

My word of the week is:


 

because I have finally taken all my Christmas decorations, yes I know what your thinking whatttttt it is like second week in January. But hubby has been poorly and in hospital for a short period meaning I needed him well. There is no way I am sorting out the sodding tree into different groups. I never realised artificial trees were so complicated to do, ugh. Still the tree is down now, so lovely to have clean and an ’empty’ feel to it.

In other news I had a gift voucher for John Lewis and brought the game silly sausage. If you have never come across this, well done and I am envy you. It is a toy sausage that has the most annoying American voice and is super loud. Quite simple for my boys to do with five demands; squeeze, hug, dip, twist, poke. However, with children they do not play it nicely or stop the repetitive button pressing as they think it is bloody hilarious. I am glad to get my ears a rest when they are at nursery and school.

Cheers for reading X

The Reading Residence

Ftmob – January 2017

Hey readers,

Whilst drawing in a book for pen control with my eldest son, he commented saying that this the bird and (the line) is a wee line as he is a male and has a willy.

Early this week in the car the eldest wanting to discuss, “what is love?” which we had to explain the different types of love and what it felt like when you love something or someone.

My eldest was super tired the other day and really upset. “I want to be a women and have a baby”. He was absolutely gutted that he can’t have a baby. We also explained that you don’t just need a woman to have a baby but also need a man to fertilise the egg.

My youngest over the past month speech/vocabulary has come on leaps and bounds. When it was just me and him shopping he said, “I miss daddy and my older brother”, so cute.

My eldest made me laugh, “I wish Christmas was every day”. Hubby said, “well emm Christmas can’t be every day as it will be very boring and nothing special. Not to mention cost a fortune”. My son responded, “Ok daddy, then let’s just have it two or three days a week”.

Cheers for reading X

Little Hearts, Big Love

January blues

Hey readers,

Can you believe that it is the 6th January already, ugh! Looking out of my window it is wet and miserable and I currently feel a bit pants, I think it is the case of the January blues. I tell you why I frigging hate this month.

  • Firstly, lets start with the fact that  you are now skint after the holidays after you have spend all your money on presents. Not to mention the amount of money you have forked out for them sodding rides, especially in my town they seem to overdosed the area in them. The one’s your little darlings can locate two miles away and because you have to go shopping with sodding the kids you can’t avoid them, ugh!
  • You are fat, because you have over indulged and put on another half a stone, of course it was fun at the time when I was stuffing my face with mince pies without a care in the world. Now I have to work my even bigger fat ass off because I can’t afford to buy bigger clothing because I am skint, init!
  • You have to deal with the mega sugar withdraws when your cold and skint.
  • It is back to normality and routine where lie-ins or lazying around are NOW not acceptable! Let’s not forget the dreaded the school run and silly o’clock, it is an absolute disgrace I tell ya!
  • The comedown from Christmas and the sense of magic has gone.
  • Everything feels bare and all the pretty lights have gone away. So now all I see is unattractive concrete.
  • It is cold, wet and generally boring because all the excitement of December has vanished.
  • Then there is them New Year’s resolutions that evaporate after the first week of  January casing you to go deeper into the blue mood.

Cheers for reading X

You Baby Me Mummy

Food 

​Hey readers,
My word of the week is 

Because it has been full of festivity and full of feasts. I have indulgenced in chocolate, cake, sweets and rich food. It has been lovely to let go and just relax the best I can.  
The boys loved having the special treat of having chocolate for breakfast on Christmas day, if you can’t do it at Christmas when can you do it.

The boys have loved playing with their new toys and we have piles of toys nd having them everywhere. I be honest I am not every good at things not in order but trying to let it pass as it is Christmas. 

So basically Christmas is all about disruption and letting the routines go out of the Weekend. But it has been nice to catch something decent on the telly for once. Loving outnumbered. Though, slightly weird seeing the children all grown up.

Happy new year to you all.

Cheers for reading X 

The Reading Residence

Liked and loved December

Hey readers,

This month has been fun with the lead up to Christmas and there has been lots of things to enjoy.

I have enjoyed not doing the school runs and the break from all the information/letters. Trying to remember all these things is hard so it has been lovely to have a step back and have a much needed rest.

I have enjoyed Christmas and self indulging. I have loved eating some lovely food and appreciate the fact I ma in a position where we can afford food and are safe. Especially around Christmas time you forget sometimes that other people may not be so fortunate.

We enjoyed visiting Santa and watching the magic of Father Christmas.

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I have enjoyed treating myself to some books in the sales that I have wanted for a while but been blessed with some money to buy them.

I have enjoyed the fog and darker nights getting cosy.

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Cheers for reading X

A Cornish Mum

Christmas

Hey readers,

Obviously my word of the week is:

 

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I can’t believe it is only two more sleeps until the big day. This week we have rang Santa on the old tablet, visited Santa and went on a sleigh ride and decorated some cards to get the boys in the festive mood.

It also is half term and it has been mental, toys everywhere and a lot of, ‘play nicely’ or ‘gently’ or simple, ‘mummmmmmmmy’. But it has been lovely to watch the boys play together most of the time nicely and on their own a large amount of time in their bedroom. I suspect that they are probably planning on taking over the world.

I have finally done all the sodding Christmas wrapping, what a pain in the arse it is. Maybe because I feel like I need to get it or want it all sorted so I can relax because nothing I hate worse is rushing around like a headless chicken.

I just want to wish you a very merry Christmas, whatever happens I hope it is not too manic but enjoyable too.

Cheers for reading X

The Reading Residence

This time of year

Hey readers,

This time of year when it is the build up to Christmas I struggle with. The whole time feels intensified and crazy that it gets to me and though it does not affect me straight away, I can guarantee without a shadow of a dealt I will have a meltdown during the festive period.

I have autism and for me one of my struggles is socialising and sadly it appears a social rule is to meet all the people you know in a short period to spend some quality time with.

My problem is I can do social but really have difficulties with long periods with people, not getting a break and dealing with people who I may only see once or twice of year. I need my time on my own to calm down.

It can be hard because other people might not understand my disability and may interpretate my behaviour as being cold and not welcoming.  They don’t understand I need time to myself and breaks because it is so mentally challenging trying to mask and put on this friendly person when really at times I just want to tell everyone to fuck off with the rubbish. All these random social rules with all the niceties, when most of the time people don’t really bother. But because it is Christmas it is about family and we have to adapt these weird rules during Christmas. There so much social  pressure and I struggle to mask my trueness for long periods of time.

I have to hold my tongue  and monitor the things I say, because I am an adult and not many people expect autistic adults, especially female to behaviour childlike. God forbid you’re an autistic woman with children, I should know better and it is outrageous to even think about behaving oddly. They presume if we behave childish then we definitely made the wrong decision to have children and probably wondering why aren’t social knocking on the door.

Why do I do this, get involved in this social situations? Well to be perfectly honest wit you I am so desperate to fit in that I put the pressure on myself and other times I am wanting to keep my hubby sweet.

But after all the hype, all the energy into communicating, new environments, new dynamics and the pretense that I have to deal with I am left feeling exhausted. My bones will ache for days after, I will cry a shed load and my mind will basically collapse as it has used all my stored up resources to mimic neurotically people.

So yeah I am miserable cow, but do I have the right to be? who’s needs get priority, how much can I be accepted before being called childish.

Then after all the palava I am left feeling deflated and depressed. Wondering what the point is and why autism is such a bitch. It causes a rift between me and  my hubby. Ok he knows some bits about autism but he also has his own agenda and it is not always easy for him to see my point without probably thinking I am being selfish or there is so much for him to deal with that he needs a break.

Cheers for reading.

Spectrum Sunday