I feel overshadowed,
Like I am not seen,
I have a voice
But no one listens,
I am insignificant.
My word of the week is:
I always have this problem with feeling guilty attached to staying at home with my boys. There is so much pressure to do something and be on the go that we can almost forget to take things slowly.
It is hard when you really struggle but taking it the slow lane has really helped me to enjoy my time with the boys. Don’t get me wrong there are moments when I want tear my hair out with all the bickering over such insignificant things.
I have enjoyed the most cuddles and just chatting whilst playing hairdressers. The boys have been more relaxed and I think we all have appreciated it.
Of course we didn’t stop everything we fitting in trying out our new dinosaur tray and making some yummy, scrummy getting in my tummy chocolate cake. It was divine.
Cheers for reading X
You can learn a lot about cats about how to live a more relaxed life. I hate being human sometimes, I just doubt everything in my tiny little mind. I dread Friday is the worst, it is like I have had a whole week to beat myself up on not being good enough.
Why do ‘some’ of us torture ourselves, we think we are weak when really we must be strong to get through this personal torment. There are days when all I would love to do is sit back in my hammock and just forget everything. I know, I know I think too much, that is always been my downfall. I am just so glad for summer holidays, I am exhausted from worrying about not being good enough parent.
I hate failure, we all fear it but if asked what is success, I wouldn’t be able to tell you so how can I fail if I don’t know what the alternative is?!
Life is much simpler being a cat, all you need to worry about is the small stuff like finding a place that is warm and sunshine touching your fur. How amazing would that be to have to care in the world. Maybe I should ask my husband because he is an expert in it.
Being a cat has so many benefits such as, getting rent free, being able to sleep as much as you want and have the freedom to roam about and piss on your territory . I would definitely be up for that, haha. Even if people annoy you, you cats can walk away and not give a damn, that must be so liberating not caring what other people think. There is no drama about being fat and what worrying about how people view you, you just prance about in your fur all day, look great with no effort whatsoever.
Told you cats have it great, we can learn a thing or too.
I now leave you on a final quote:
Cheers for reading X
Some days I feel
I can battle on through.
Other days I question
My ability to adult.
You think your control,
One moment can change,
With no way back.
There is no going back,
I am here right now,
So let’s just enjoy,
Where the moment takes us.
I know when you hear the word selfish it dipicts a negative picture but I want to share with you today why it is actually good for you SOMETIMES to be selfish.
Firstly, because you are listening to your needs and not others. Sometimes, we need to say I want this because I need it for my saniety.
It gives you assertiveness and feeling of comfortability to talk about your feelings to others. It is healthier because of not ignoring your needs and doing something about it can help you feel good. Asking for something should not be shamed upon, asking for help is ok, for me asking for timeout is important. It calms me down and others so in the long run everyone is winning.
You are listening to your needs and doing something constructive about it. As long as you are polite then I think it is ok to say look I need this for me becuase of XYZ.
You will help build your self-awareness skills in opening up to what you need. It will help increase your self-worth because you are being constructive and doing something to help you feel better.
It could mean better relationships because you are finding a solution to a problem, for example if you cook a lot and say to a housemate I need one a day a week off and you need to do the meal for us instead. Even though they might object it gives you the change to discuss issues and talk about how you are feeling. There is less anger and being open will be benefit making the situation more harmonious compared to if you sat on it and didn’t raise your issues. At least then this could mean something productive has helped and lead to more positive relationships without any negative impact because you have talked about the situation
Cheers for reading X
I’m sat here in the coffee shop looking out the window watching the rain drizzle down in a race to get to the bottom. It is an early afternoon in October where it’s not cold but it’s not hot either but a jumper wouldn’t go amiss.
I sit here with my hands wrapped around a hot cup of coffee thinking about what to do with my free time. I don’t normally have enough a lot free time to do something on my own, so this is a luxurious for me. I shall indulge in this moment and enjoy it without the presence of guilt.
I can take my time to take it easy as there is no rush to hurry. I don’t need to do anything but enjoy this moment. I am going to sit here for a while and just soak up the atmosphere.
The place is quiet, all I can hear is the coffee machine bubbling away whilst the chatter goes on in the background. I feel warm and relaxed sitting back reading my book. I feel safe and there’s music playing in the background, soft coffee shop type of music nothing that promotes any sort of emotional feelings towards it.
I’m just in this moment enjoying what I have, reflecting about what I could be doing but then not really bothering because it’s ok to do nothing. We forget in this day and age but it’s ok to do nothing,it’s ok to be lazy and just watch and listen and drink. Frequently you see strangers out of the window rushing about, not having a moment to stop and take note of life.
It is good to take a moment in life you just sit back and smelling that lovely Lava Java coffee making sure your belly is all warm, happy and content knowing that there’s no rush to do anything. the only thing I have to worry about next is to think about what cake I would like what goes well with coffee maybe carrot cake or lemon drizzle simple choices simple boys I’m happy in this moment no demand no need I’m just sitting in a coffee shop by myself minding my own business and not worrying it’s good to be alive right here right now Peace by myself
Let the water drip down,
Flowing down your body,
Let the warmth fill you
Will joy and cleanliness.
Take big energy
To see it right throw.
Soak me up,
Let my worries slip away,
And ready to start the day.
I am a cat,
I like to brance,
I sniff it out,
It’s in my nature.