Planning

Hey readers,

This week my word is:

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This is because I am consciously aware of the fact that we are fastly approaching the summer holiday. I am not good at adapting to change due to my autism, so I need to plan a system in place with how I am going to get through it. Previous years I tend to get quite obsessed with it but this year I am trying to be general and just have options of things to do when I feel like tearing my hair out.

I have also been to the library and withdrew some books out. I have lost my mojo to read physical books recently so purposely took the time to find some good books to get my teeth stuck into.

My youngest gave me a scare this week, whilst at nursery he fell on a balancing beam and the beam sprang up into his face. So, he has a gorgeous massive brush on his nose, close to his eye socket. Luckily his eyesight is ok and mainly superficial bruising rather then any damage.

Cheers for reading X

The Reading Residence

Disorder

Hey readers,

My word of the week is

Disorder

Because my home is basically pretty much looks like a drugs den and I would not dare decorate when I have a hubby who’s experienced in decorating (not to mention a perfectionist). Downside to this is he is lazy so for months we have walls with blobs of paint to see which we want.

Then suddenly, hubby decides to get his shit together and go ape in the space of three days sanding all the walls and buying paint and painting.

Everything is covered in dust and nothing is rightfully in order, OMG  I  hate it with a passion, why has he always got to be an extremist, grrrrr.

I suppose on a brighter note the walls do not look smother, haha.

Also, had both sets of grandparents different times during the week which instantly means the kids go loopy. But it was nice to have  a change for them and they were so excited telling them about every single thing in detail, like we don’t need to know about how much poo you have done today, lol!

Cheers for reading X

The Reading Residence

Mindful

Hey readers,

My word of the week is

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because as a person I am anxious and neurotic at the best times, I am autistic and always self conscious about how I communicate whether that be verbal or non-verbal. I have a lot of self-doubt and I am on edge a lot as a parent. But this week when I have had really high levels of anxiety, I have embraced and gone with it. This is something that I am not very good at because it is scary, generally with my anxiety I get a LOT of intrusive thoughts. It has really been really effective, not all the time but a small time. For me that is progress because I am a firm believer in baby steps and anxiety is something I have to live with. But this week I felt quite proud of my work, it takes a lot of courage to change especially when you are not feeling 100%.

So, I am going to take this opportunity to big myself up because no one else will. You know what I can get stuck perfectionist ways so it is good to see the positive.

Cheers for reading X

The Reading Residence

Heatwave

Hey readers,

My word of the week is

Heatwave

blinking Nora it is hot, and the sweating is something else. I don’t know how people can enjoy this weather *ahem, my husband* I don’t like humid! It turns me into a moany cow, thank goodness for Twitter where I can just tweet my hatred for this weather. Don’t get me wrong I like sun but not with the stickiness.

Shall I discuss children? why not the struggle of  bedtime, oh my word how hard is it to get children in bed in this heat.

Thank goodness for the sprinkler on my balcony because that is where they have been most of the week, along with tons of showers.

The nights are the worst in the heat, I’m exhausted and hot, such a fun times to get through the days.

Then there is heat stroke, we didn’t even stay in the sun for a short while but they caught it and my this takes the grumpiness on to a new level.

Thank goodness that the weather is changing today, I am so very happy right now about this fact.

Cheers for reading X

The Reading Residence

Calm

Hey readers,

My word of the week is:

calm

Because the past two weeks have been really challenging mentally for me and it took it’s toll on me.

It is a return to school and no anxiety induced situations for me this week which makes me feel calm because I haven’t used up all my emotions. Therefore allowing my home life to be a bit more calmer, which naturally has a direct impact on my son.

My son however, returning back to school (who is autistic) has been having a fair few meltdowns, luckily we have purchased ear defenders and have found them to be really helpful. I think when my son gets home he is exhausted from all the noise and stimuli so to put them on and drown out everything for a while until he is calmer has been helpful.

I now can not wait to get some adult ones for me for similar reasons as they are quite comforting on the ears and for someone who has sensory issues is an added bonus.

Cheers for reading X

The Reading Residence

Time

Hey readers,

my word of the week is

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What I mean to say about this is lack of time due to the fact that it is half term. As lovely as half term is it leaves me lacking time. I feel like I don’t have enough of it this week and feel a bit tired. It is exhausting work trying to entertain children whilst trying desperately holding on to your sanity.

I attempt to do a fun activity such as playing with Plasticine, nice little relaxing activity for my boys. Don’t be silly, I have never been so God dame frustrated in my life. I have to supervise to make sure everyone has got an equal amount, the same colours and sit in the middle making sure that it does not kick off. I don’t need to say anymore then my patience can run very thin.

This has what most of it has been like, seriously sometimes I question why I bother. Sometimes, it is much to turn telly on and deal with the crippling guilt of being the ‘slummy mummy’.

Roll on Monday where I can breathe and enjoy the silence without thinking that boys are next door planning on taking over the world.

Cheers for reading X

The Reading Residence

Grumpy

Hey readers,

My word of the word of the week is:

Grumpy

because sometimes life sucks, especially during the week before your period, which affects me emotionally the worst. Seriously, the smallest things are triggers and I get SO irritated, breathe and I may snap, lol!

It doesn’t help that I have a stinking cold courtesy of my boys, cheers lads I love you too ūüėČ So I have been accumulating piles of snot rags with this constant stream of snot, when will it end, boohoo! It sucks too because as a mum you are expected to just get on with it regardless if you feel like hell. I mean my arm could be dangling of and I would still have to get up and wipe my son’s arse! Parenting sometimes lovely other times well quite frankly it is pants!

I be honest I spend most of my time mopping at home, in the most comfortest clothes as I am so bloated. But I am entitled to that because I am a women and that my friends is a fact!

Hope you have had a lovely week readers,

Cheers for reading X

 

The Reading Residence