I hate people, seriously all they ever seems to do is be fake it. Why can’t people be honest and just tell the truth because you think it hurts peoples feelings. But here is the thing I already know so don’t pussy around the subject.
It sucks being autistic, the constant rejection of people, pretending to be nice when really they don’t give two monkeys.
I am sick of it and sick of this world that I live in. It doesn’t help I am stuck in places where people don’t really know where to put me. Let’s face facts first impressions count and no one likes the awkwardness of the autistic people, it is much easier to just deny us the opportunity. Even though us autistic people would so bloody hard, more so then the average person because we have to,i t’s a fight to fit in when your just totally failing on the outside. I feel lost and I don’t belong, this place feels lonely. Sometimes, I just can’t face it anymore but once again you have to find the strength to get back up again even though you are plummeting into a dark, dark place.
It sucks to have to undergo interviews when clearly they are not autistic friendly and again I feel like my needs are met. Don’t you understand us autistic people can’t cope with question after question without getting burnt out, not to mention the social interaction, it takes all our resources to get through it to then be told that actually we are not looking for people at the moment. But why put me through this hell, what you really mean is your not a suitable candidate, just be honest, at least I know where I stand. Right now I feel insulted and taken for a full. It took all my energy to get out my comfort zone and I am devastated. It really does suck because of the effort I but into these things but never get the opportunities, I don’t know why I bother.
Even as an adult I am always dealt with the hand of rejection and you know what people it sucks, big time for us autistic people to be treated like this. I am just thankful for my blog as it is an outlet when other times I can not muster the words to anyone the pain I am battling everyday. Rant over!
Cheers for reading
I have done this before but I thought what the heck lets do it again. Thank you ThreesyPeasy for nominating me kindly for the Liebster Award. If you do have change check out her blog as it is an honest account of motherhood!
The Liebster Award is given from one blogger to another. The idea is to find out more about new blogs and the bloggers who blog them.
The rules are:
- ) Thank the person who nominated you and post a link to their blog in your post.
2) Show the award on your blog or in your post.
3) Answer the 11 questions askedhttp://hotpinkwellingtons.co.uk by the person who nominated you.
4) Write 11 random facts about yourself.
5) Nominate 5-11 bloggers that you feel deserve the award.
6) Create a list of new questions for your nominees to answer.
7) Once your blog is published, let your nominees know that they have been nominated and link them to your post for more details.
- What do you like to do when you get some ‘me’ time? I enjoy a hot brew, colouring in, reading on the old kindle, calligraphy, blogging (obviously), photography and snail mail.
- Favourite thing to do as a family? My eldest loves us as a whole unit together (that is where he is at his most happiest). We enjoy exploring parks, woodland. Sometimes if we are a bit flush with the cash we have a meal out or play games such as Bunny Hope. I highly recommend Bunny Hope as it is perfect when you have two young children at different levels but can play all together and still enjoy it as a family.
- Joyous mothering moment? Guilty pleasure here but when you have a new born and it taskes aged to wind the baby. When you finally get that burp that is so loud it is deafening. You feel like your winning at parenting as it has taken ages to do.
- Annoying mothering moment? negotiating with a child, nuff said!
- What’s the one piece of advice on life you would give to your kids? Be authentic and be you.
- Why did you start you blog? Depression, document some bits that I want, fill a void.
- What’s been your biggest blogging pet peeve?When linking up a blog and being told which blog to comment on.
- What do you love about blogging? Expression, giving you a voice, feeling not so isolated as a parent.
- What’s your favourite movie? I have two – Girl, Interrupted or Monty Python and Now For Something Completely Different.
- If your life was a movie, what actors would you get to play you? Lena Dunham, Ellen Page or Rachel Search.
Now here are my eleven random facts about myself:
- I have green eyes.
- I am left handed.
- I have a fear of death (well more unknown side of things).
- I am a teaholic.
- I am addicted to Diet Coke/ Pepsi Max.
- I have never broken any bones in my body.
- My nanny was a witch and into the whole witch craft side of things.
- I get bad anxiety when hubby drives on the motorway (I hate motorways).
- One of my favourite programmes is Catchphrase.
- I hate the texture of starch from potatoes.
- I have an obsession with taken pictures of trees (cheers Instagram).
The Bloggers I nominate for The Liebster Award are:
Here are your 11 questions:
- What’s the hardest parenting challenge you have faced?
- Left or right side of bed?
- Best advice to a new Blogger starting out?
- If you were stranded on an island and could only take one item what would it be?
- Favourite meal?
- Best place to go get kids clothes from?
- Apple or android?
- What is your view on the term ‘yummy mummy’?
- What activities do you do with your child/ren at home?
- How many children do you want?
- What is the best joke you know?
Thanks for reading X
Last week we went out as a family to our local Christmas market in our city centre. We decided to go in the evening as I think it feels a bit more special with the lights on in the nighttime.
There was a big wheel ride that my son was desperate to go on. However, I joined him and naively was not expecting it too go quite so fast! You see I have never been on anything like a ferris wheel before. It is a little nerve racking as it is quite fast and I may have been a bit screamish. These added to my son enjoying it more and finding it ever so hilarious, checky monkey. It also gave us spectacular views across the city and lovely to see a place that you visit regularly from a different point of view.
We also looked around of the array of different goodies in the wooden huts but most attractive for both my boys was seeing the light display on the floor where they would dance about, simple pleasures.
We also took in all the different Christmas lights. It was a nice to relax and have a wonderful time without feeling like a headless chicken amoungst the Mayhem.
However, we did found a Christmas tree which was wonderful with a fuller shape and glittery branches. The tree we brought was something slightly different to what we had before.
Even though there are a lot of places with these type of Christmas markets. It was delightful to feel like being part of something especially as it felt family orientated. People were enjoying the music and just generally having a good time so it was good to soak it. It was great to just enjoy the fact that my sons could simply be free to play and have fun. They loved chasing each other through the lights and it was felt good that I could be laidback without the fear of having to get back home for a certain time. It was also a chance to spend together as a family as we are not always together and my son enjoys it when we are together as a unit. Even though it was nothing out of this world it was good fun to spend time together doing simething a little different and create memories.
Thank you for reading X