Christmas decoration wishlist 2017

Hey readers,

As we are in the festive period, you can not miss Christmas decor everywhere at the moment, I thought I would comply a wishlist of some of the beautiful products on and offline at the moment, that tickle my fancy, enjoy!

chrsitmas decorations

1. Tesco – £9.99

This is a christmas water filled LED snowman lantern. What I like about it is a bit different and something the boys would enjoy.

2. Wilko – £25.00

This item is a six foot indoor colour changing twig christmas tree. I have a soft spot for low lighting sensory items due to my autism. I have seen this set up and it is really beautiful and subtle the pastel colours.

3. Debenhams (Sass & Belle) – £17.00

I love quirkiness and something a bit unusual, so feast your eyes on this beauty, a white polar bear head. To be fair mind it is not massive so won’t be too overpowering in a room but still out some character.

4. H & M – £6.99

Bring some festive cheer to your sofa or bed with this lovely stag cushion. I like it because it is not to daring and think the design is really beautiful.

5. Matalan – £12.00

I love Christmas Nutcrackers, I just think a bit traditional and cute.

Cheers for reading X

 

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Prepared 

Hey readers ,

my word of the week is


because I have finally got my head in place to deal with Christmas shopping. I am so glad I have completed it, I really struggled with the busyness, so glad it is done now rather than later. I can not believe how busy it is or it could be down to the fact I haven’t been in a shop for over a week. Anyhow, that is one pressure done and it is such a relief. How hot are the stores right now, I feel like I an going pass out, ugh! Still in denial that we are in December and we are fast approaching Christmas, eek!

That said I have been enjoying the films that have been on telly at the moment. I do love to curl up in the evening when it is so miserable outside.

Hope you have had a good week.

Cheers for reading.

Worthless autisitic 

This evening has been tough, it real has been a battle within my own mind. My husband has boxes everywhere,  there is crap everywhere and my anxiety is through the roof. I can’t escape as the doors are closed and only I am confined to the living room as it is not safe for my children to go into any of the other rooms.

There are boxes near the front door, I feel suffocated and angry. Today I feel I am not designed to live in this neurotypical world. I am not suited to living with people and there crap, it is everywhere and there is no order.

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My eldest has had major meltdown and screaming matches to add it all into the mix. My ears are ringing. My anxiety is making me shake like a leave. I want to cry but my depression makes me feel so numb. I wish I could just run away, this parenting malarkey is shit. No one cares. I am alone and I just want to switch over. I am struggling with noise, the lightning just all the information. I want my brain to shut down, I want this noise to go away. I want to run away instead I am stuck looking  at these four walls and thinking what have I done to my life.

I hate my autism, I don’t care what you think. Days like today I wish it would go away, instead it is always there. How am I meant to feel good about this? what bit of this is good?  I feel rubbish and worthless piece of crap and it seems everything I touch goes belly up. I can’t read or communicate correctly. I just don’t see the point, I just want darkness or just some quiet. My world is full of noise and want it to stop so I can breathe.

Cheers for reading X

What I like about Christmas

Hey readers,

Can you actually believe that we are in DECEMBER, its true! Let’s get in the festive spirit and things Christmas related.

On the big day you can eat your body weight in calories and drink the booze until your sozzled on the sofa.

Kids are not allowed to stay they are bored. because how can they be bored with that amount of new s**t!

 Normally tat is frowned upon, but the brighter and more daring the decoration the better Christmas vibe it brings!

Xmas, Christmas, New Year, Holiday

Finally something half decent is on TV and I am not even talking about Netflix, I am just talking about the ‘normal’ channels.

All the stand up DVD’S come out!

There is nothing more beautiful than having candles on and watching the twinkly lights in the evening.

Now I have children I have an excuse to read the Beano and feel the love once more.

Background, Christmas

Roast potatoes lavished with goose fat, why?… ermmm because it is christmas and I can do what I like and no one will bat an eyelid!

Christmas toilet roll, can you get anymore festive.

I find it really therapeutic wrapping presents, especially when I have the radio on in the background and a good old alcoholic drink in my hand, really helps me get in the mood for Christmas.

Having family of my own to share it with, at one point in my life I had no one. So, I feel truly blessed to be able people that I can call my own and celebrate with.

Using Father Christmas as a threat to keep your little ones in order I am going miss when it is over.

Santa, Polar Bear, Christmas, Snow

Seeing the magic in your kids eyes and that lovely innocent excitement on Christmas Eve.

Having snuggles with the boys on the sofa Christmas eve and watching Channel four special film they do every year (seems to be a tradition in our household).

Cheers for reading X