It’s OK to admit your not ok 

Hey readers,

Today was a day that decided to take action over something that I’ve been in denial about for a while now and that is an increase in being very depressed. I have OCD so the thoughts are very intrusive and fast firing in my head and constantly checking things so enough is enough. My mood is really low and just a sense of dread, followed with complete sadness.

I am on medication, however for a month or two ago I decided to reduce one medication. I forgot what depression had felt like. When you have been taking  medication for so long it suppresses your emotions. Which to be fair has been good as it means you can manage the day but you believe the mindset has shifted therefore believing that you don’t suffer as much.
Another reason why I wanted to reduce my medication is the weight gain. However, I think it is a small price to pay compared to waking up angry/crying/ suicidal etc.  I prefer to be fat and less breakdown than the alternative.

So, Today I took action, I spoke to my husband and booked an appointment to doctor to discuss the matter. Hopefully the doctor can alter it, it may fall down to me having to go and be referred to a psychiatrist to get the issue resolved. 

Yep, so it is just a ramble but glad I took action. Because it is ok to take medication and it is ok to not be ok. I still even now struggle to be open about my depression. It is hard when mental illness is viewed so negatively. I decided to write my thoughts down as a way to help me and allow other people who may be of interest in reading in this and no you are not allow. It is a fight worth fighting for.

Cheers for reading X

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34 thoughts on “It’s OK to admit your not ok 

  1. I’m sorry you are dealing with this, but I think it’s great that you are writing and believe me – it helps others 🙂 I have been struggling with the decision about medication for years. I have a phobia of allergic reactions (after I had an allergic reaction to a medication when I was 12) and am terrified of taking anti-anxiety medication. Still, I think I need to see my doctor again and talk about the options. Thank you!

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  2. While I’m sorry you have to deal with this, I 100 percent agree that it’s okay to not be okay and to ask for help. Mental illness is as real as a broken leg, or any other “visible” health issue, and deserves the same type of compassion and gravitas. ((hugs)) #MMBC x

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  3. Hiya, sharing how we feel is never easy as it (it should be though) and to share it in a blog post is very brave. There will be people nodding their head in understanding as they read your struggle. I do hope you feel much better soon.

    Thank you for linking up with the #MMBC and sharing your story.
    xx

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  4. I’m so, so, so glad you are addressing this very important issue. Thank you. No one should be leading less than the very best life they can. All the best of luck to you and hopefully you’ll get the correct treatment through your doctor. #BloggersBest

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  5. Well done for speaking out about how you feel, that’s a very brave thing to do. You did the right thing to seek help. We all need a little help from time to time. I hope the doctor helped you. Sending big hugs your way xx

    Thanks so much for being part of #MMBC. See you next week 🙂

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  6. You are so much stronger than you think just by taking those actions. I had postnatal depression when my daughter was newborn and I never told anyone and always regretted it. Sending you love and lots of strength – thank you for linking up to #dreamteam too! Xxx

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  7. You are talking about it and that’s fantastic. This was a couple of weeks ago now so I hope you managed to have a successful trip to the doctors. Apologies for the late comment, holidays got in the way, better late than never! Thanks for linking up to #TriumphantTales, hope to see you on Tuesday!

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