I hate people, seriously all they ever seems to do is be fake it. Why can’t people be honest and just tell the truth because you think it hurts peoples feelings. But here is the thing I already know so don’t pussy around the subject.
It sucks being autistic, the constant rejection of people, pretending to be nice when really they don’t give two monkeys.
I am sick of it and sick of this world that I live in. It doesn’t help I am stuck in places where people don’t really know where to put me. Let’s face facts first impressions count and no one likes the awkwardness of the autistic people, it is much easier to just deny us the opportunity. Even though us autistic people would so bloody hard, more so then the average person because we have to,i t’s a fight to fit in when your just totally failing on the outside. I feel lost and I don’t belong, this place feels lonely. Sometimes, I just can’t face it anymore but once again you have to find the strength to get back up again even though you are plummeting into a dark, dark place.
It sucks to have to undergo interviews when clearly they are not autistic friendly and again I feel like my needs are met. Don’t you understand us autistic people can’t cope with question after question without getting burnt out, not to mention the social interaction, it takes all our resources to get through it to then be told that actually we are not looking for people at the moment. But why put me through this hell, what you really mean is your not a suitable candidate, just be honest, at least I know where I stand. Right now I feel insulted and taken for a full. It took all my energy to get out my comfort zone and I am devastated. It really does suck because of the effort I but into these things but never get the opportunities, I don’t know why I bother.
Even as an adult I am always dealt with the hand of rejection and you know what people it sucks, big time for us autistic people to be treated like this. I am just thankful for my blog as it is an outlet when other times I can not muster the words to anyone the pain I am battling everyday. Rant over!
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I really struggle with my emotions at the best of times but there is one thing that I always fin helpful when dealing with my emotions and that is to cry.
Before, I used to hate it, as I felt so weak and a useless lump. However, my mindset has shifted as I got older and I came to the firm conclusion that I do enjoy a good old cry. It might not come to any solutions on how to deal with the problem but the feeling of when you cry feels like a cleaning of my motions, which I think is good for me mentally.
A lot of the time when I cry it occurs when I have had a build up of all the frustration and believe me and you I get frustrated A LOT. I am autistic and struggle with seeing the world through a non-autistic way, therefore I fee at times really angry and sad. That is why it is also important for me to find an outlet to get them feelings out in the open so they don’t get so overwhelming and interfere with my life too much.
Therefore, I appreciate it when I cry, it is my body and mind telling me to let go, just let it all out and to me it feels like all the tension floating away. The after feeling of crying is what I enjoy the most, that transition where I can think clearer. I might not have any power to sort out a problem, nevertheless it helps make me think a bit more logically.
I see crying as a healthy way to manage my emotional response to a problem. we all cry whether we admit to it or not. We should celebrate crying more and view crying as a natural reaction to situations when we feel sad.
Research has highlighted that crying actually has a chemical response in the fact that we reduce our manganese levels. It has been found that when we cry the mineral manganese affect our mood and it is 30 times greater concentrated in tears then in the blood serum.
Crying gives us more control as we are actually physically doing something to help ease the pain, acknowledging the feelings and in a sense has been a way to helps humans survive in life.
Cheers for reading X
best and Hey readers,
As a parent sometimes I wish for a bit of quiet time, especially if you have listened to the Gummy Bear song for the umpteenth time. Well here is a solution by having some CozyPhones headband headphones to give to my child to plug into tablet time. I don’t have to worry about them falling our as the earphones are inside the headband giving that extra security.
Firstly, I absolutely love the concept of the headband and as I have child that would constantly be pulling the ear phones in and out this is a helpful product to stop that from happening. Not to mention the design is soft, fun with the bright green frog character (although other characters are available). The only downfall sadly is the size is a bit too small so quite fiddly to put on my son’s head, however this could be the fact my son has a big head.
Once we mastered getting the headband on and making sure the speaker part (is a round circle type thing, proper technical term there) in place they were good to go.
My eldest loves the headband because he feels all grown up as he has seen mummy with headphones when she goes out for a run.
The stitching is really good quality and the material of the headband is soft fleece material. The cord has a 35mm plug so is compatible with a lot of different devices. The 36 inch braided cord comes in 36 inches and can manage the wear and tear of a normal child life. There is free shipping and cost $19.99. If you not a happy then a money back guarantee.
Overall they are brilliant and much better then ear plugs. My son said they were really comfortable and he could hear really well through the headphones. Another positive about the headbands is that they are perfect for road trips when you need something to distract your child from asking are we there yet over and over. Giving you time to concentrate on a relaxed journey. They can also make great gifts for birthdays.
You can find more details about the product here – CozyPhones.
Cheers for reading X
I was given a pair of CozyPhones in exchange for a review. However, all opinions expressed are entirely in my own.
Next month (18th June) will be Father’s day and if you are struggling for ideas then look no further, as I have complied a father’s day guide.
1) Firstly, my hubby is into baking and cooking, I know shock right. But I thought he might enjoy this as he always watches the programme and there is something beautiful about flicking through a cook book when you have five minutes to yourself. The Great British Bake Off Every Day cook book, full of favourite recipes from Mary Berry and Paul Hollywood. You pick pick up a copy from Asda (£9).
2) Looking for something amusing and a Star Wars Fan, check out this funny mug with the well know Yoda character printed on it. You can buy this online from Etsy (£6.99 + P&p).
3) Now, this item is slightly pricey but it will be a top hit for the techno man in your life. It is a spectrum solo DAB+FM radio. I like the fact that it looks similar to a Lego piece so something little bit different from your typical DAB style radio. But be perfect to have in the kitchen or even if you opt for a summer barbie in the garden, will create the perfect ambience. You can buy the radio from John Lewis (£40).
4) If you want something a little bit different check out Matalan option of growing your own pizza toppings (£3).
5) Always a hit in my household is the old alcohol beverage and this Hobgoblin beer from Tesco (£1.25) will nicely quench any father’s first on the special day.
I hope you have found this guide inspiring and whatever way you celebrate Father’s day, I hope you have a fabulous day spoling the father’s in your life.
Cheers for reading X
Cheers for reading X
My word of the week is:
because I have bee sorting out and descaling the amount of rubbish in my home. It gets to the point where there is no space so something has to give. I find this type of activity really relaxing, I feel like a weight has been lifted.
I do love a good sort out and donating things to charity shops because then someone else can get something out of it rather then staying with and gathering dust.
Now the next stage is to not go out and buy more books to replace them, haha, the struggle is real!
In other news we visited the butterfly farm on Saturday and was lovely to see all the different butterflies even though my eldest struggled with the randomness of butterflies fluttering everywhere, that however, is a whole new story in its self.
Hope you have had a good week,
Cheers for reading X