Sometimes I want to hide away like a coconut far far away cocoon safely in my ball closed tightly for no one to enter.
I suppose the downside of wanting to be in a coconut is the size of me being the size of a hippo.
OK, jokes aside, I think I would miss the freedom of life that so so colourful. as much as it is very stimulating for me and potentially the risk of wanting to close down. i would miss the spontaneous of the simple pleasures that makes me smile.
I am a firm believer that there is beauty everywhere, even in this hectic world that we live in.
sometimes it is good to keep things simple and have that opportunity to hide away in my little box where I don’t get overexposed to the stimulis that make my mind spin.
In one sense I am lucky to be free to have the choice to chose ti accept the challenge of what life has dumped upon me.
Sometimes I feel that I can feel like I am walking around with head fog not knowing where to go and temporarily lose the ability to read anything. Which means I am in a situations at times when I am at risk because I don’t have the skills to make safe decisions.
That being said I normally can spot most of the time triggers and can deal pre-meltdown/shutdown. I suppose that one blessing is that the older you get with autism you learn more about you and how the disability effects you as an individual with the condition. Although, I still am learning to this day and don’t think I will ever stop. Life is full of surprises and you just never know what will help or how you will react.
Cheers for reading X