What do you see 

I want the ground to swallow me up,

I see you all staring

Waging that finger.

Your judging eyes only see

What is in front of you

You can’t see the pain

Of wishing to vanish

To get away from this rubbish.

No one tells you in these

Parents classes,

How to be when your standing there

All alone in this mindfield

Of confusion and misery.

Preventing burnout

Hey readers,

It is the end of the week, yet again I am pooped, my body is aching and I feel like I can do the bare minimum. I can only come to the conclusion that I am suffering from burnout. As an autistic person I don’t have as much energy as a neurotypical person because It takes a lot more energy to deal with my difficulties that I to face throughout the day. So, I am have been searching recently on ways to try and help ease the burnout and thought maybe others would like to hear on what has worked for me.

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Make sure that during the day I have time out, where I don’t have to think but just be. This is not a time where I learn anything or have to remember certain cues, it’s a time to allow my brain to switch off and relax.

Being kind to myself – so easy to say but putting it into to practice is hard, especially if you are a perfectionist and give yourself a hard time. Looking at the small positive things that you have done during the day is a reminder that you’re doing ok.

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Accepting that I cannot be superhuman and my energy is limited. The major thing that I struggle to do is ask for help or accept that it is ok for another person to do something, it does not mean you are a failure.

Being realistic with what you can achieve and focusing on sectioning out the important stuff and not so important. Learning the art of negotiating and leaving somethings for another time helps me make the day not so overwhelming.

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Having a list and righting them in order of importance, plus giving those time frames helps me feel less overwhelmed and feel more comfortable about how my day is going to pan out.

What ways help you in dealing with burnout?

Cheers for reading X

Five Chocolate Egg Alternatives

Hey Readers,

Do you sometimes what to get a different Easter present other then chocolate. Well I have selected a few items that are not covered in chocolate but can still be fun to give to a child at Eater.

1. Here we have this bright and fun bouncy Easter animals, such a simple idea. This would also be brilliant to have races on a table with siblings. They are from  baker Ross, (pack of four for £1.65).

bunny toy

2. Something a little bit quirky now are these really cool trees made out of crystal that you watch to see them grow. All you have to do is add water. Great especially if ya child is wanting to learn about science. They are from  Tiger , (£2.00).

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3. You can not go wrong with a bit of painting can you and these lovely Easter characters look such good fun. They do look the kind of thing where you put in the window when it is sunny and the sun shines through the colour. Great way of getting a personalised decoration too, as all kids love seeing their work on display. They are from  Poundland, (£1.00).

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4. I am a sucker for a bit of novelty but why not if it gives me a bit of entertainment for children. Here we have a packet of six Easter crackers and they contain Easter themed items inside. They are also great fun and kid friendly way to add decoration to the table too, so win-win all round!  The crackers come from  Poundland, (£1.00)

easter egg crackers

5. Another idea to do with children is to make some Easter cookies and you don’t have to do something extravagant a simple short bread recipe is the one easiest things to do with a kid. I love these cute designs you can get from Hobby Craft, (£3.00).

easter cookie cutters

Whatever way you celebrate Eater, I hope you have a fun time.

Cheers for reading X

 

Days like today!

Hey readers,

I am just sitting on my bed as it is the most calming place for me to think.

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Right now l have lost my mojo. I get days where I can’t seem to master the simplest of tasks and just trying to keep the momentum going is a challenge. Why is it I have these type of days? I feel like I totally suck at everything I seem to touch. Life just seems so unbearable and the jealous hits me seeing other mums just getting on with life. Where some days I can’t even be bothered to get up or get dressed. I mean I do because the only think that motivates me is the persistent fear of the fact that social services will come  knocking at my door because I am an autistic depressive.

mojo

Don’t get me wrong there days when I can just plod on but this last week has nearly killed me to get through the days. I think most of the time I fantasise about just getting up and opening that door and running out and escaping myself misery.

I was in two minds to write this down as people don’t want to hear about the depressive mother who appears to be totally ungrateful! I mean there are loads of women that would love this opportunity and I beat myself up all the time for when I am being shit.  But honestly how do some mothers enjoy every single moment because I don’t,  I really don’t. Am I shit mother for saying that, I do not know. However, it does not matter anyway because I automatically have a special place in the shit mum’s club because I am an autistic mother therefore I do not obtain the special innate mothering skills that bond me and my child

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 Most of the time I am literally winging it and playing the part through the medium of masking or learning a script. I can be garnered to be mucking up at some point and being told how to be because yet again my autism brain is skewed!

Cheers for reading X

Free ways to get excise

Hey readers,

You don’t have to spend a fortune to do exercise, here are some ways to help do exercise without breaking the bank.

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A simply but a beneficial one is going for a walk or a run outside. There are apps such as couch to 5k can help you train to build your ability to run. I think it is really good to use if you’re a beginner at running.

There are football/basketball areas where all you need to do is take a ball, great for taking kids and getting fit.

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There is so many exercise videos online and the best bit is that there is a wide section of free videos, so you don’t have to fork out. There are sites such as YouTube or simply googling free exercise videos comes up host of variety of free material for you to user at your leisure.

Another exercise you could do at home is walking up and down your stairs. It is a really good way to have a work out, not to mention the benefit of keeping your heart nice and healthy.

Have a look around locally to where you live as you might find outdoor gyms in the park. They are basically gym equipment that is accessible outside and are free to use. I personally feel it is much better to do exercise outside compared to doing in a hot and sweaty indoor gym.

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Another new idea that I have recently come across are things called green gyms. They are free outdoor sessions where you work on practical activities such as planting trees or sowing meadows. Not only do you get a good workout but you also get that feel goodness by giving something back to the community.

You can get some great deals on second bikes and then you can pretty much cycle anywhere. Brilliant way to tone up on the legs and a lot more environmentally friendly.

Cheers for Reading X

 

Love for daylight hours

Hey readers,

Have you remembered to forward your clocks? Isn’t it wonderful to get lighter evenings now and I am happy for this change, let me tell you why?

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I suppose the first obvious reason why daylight saving time is good because it is lighter evenings and lovely to see the beautiful sunsets you get during summer time.

It is lovely to have more motivation as there is more light, which means getting more things doing.

Having more time to see things in the evening if I am out and about.
I really enjoy the calm of the lighter evenings, especially if it is dry and you can go for a lovely evening stroll.

Better change (if dry) to eat Al fresco, especially if it is a picnic at the park, makes my boys in particular super happy.

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For a parent the dream of having a quicker time to get the washing dry, meaning more loads completed in a smaller time is the dream!

That being said you don’t need to live your home if you have some open space, a lot more quitter for us parents and the boys play together outside without getting under your feet. Which is always an added bonus 😉

I find that if my boys are out playing in the fresh air later in the evening they sleep better during the night-time.

You feel happier when it is lighter and less likely to want to stay in watch TV, maybe because you are more energetic.

Have more desire to get out of the house and less sluggish.

During the light times the golden hour is a beautiful time to take attractive photos.

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With the lighter mornings you’re more motivated to get up and not need as much sleep during the lighter months.

What things do you like about Daylight Saving Time?

Cheers for reading X

Top 16 items for men in 2016!

Hey readers,

Check out this ace infographic from Look What’s Cool of the top ten items for men for 2016, great for inspiration for birthday’s or father’s day – which I know is a way off but you are never too early to be prepared.

Look What's Cool Infograph

Cheers for reading X

 

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