I have started doing vlogging as an extension to my blog. There has been something that I have noticed since editing the videos in the way I see myself.
I don’t have mirrors in my home which is a shame as it really did help me keep things real as sometimes I am a bit deluded with thinking that I am not as fat as I look. But actually seeing myself in reality I know I have a problem. You see I am a binge eater… I go to food for whatever the occasion maybe; sad, angry, happy, anxious you name it I am there stuffing my face. Sadly with all the wrong food.
It is something I have battled with most of life and it was a problem even when I was a child but could hide it becuase I was slim. We all know binge eaters are hiders/ sneaky and keep it to them selves.
I Need to retrain my brain and stop relying on food so much as a comforter. I need to lose weight as it is causing me to have problems with my feet and walking. I want to be healthy and not be ‘at risk’. I have now started using a mirror at home again which has really helped me to keep things real. In addition to that I have safe foods, which I am trying to go to when I want to eat or use my hands.
So far this week has been tough on my journey. Which by the way is going be one hell of a ride. BUT instead of looking at the big picture I need to focus on small, relistic goals to keep me on track and motivated.
I have been swapping foods for healthy options. I love Branburn apples and have found that they have helped settle my hunger.
It is early days yet but another trick I have constantly being using this week is talking to myself not in a crazy way but trying to repeat mantures in times of weakness. The kind of things I talk about is reminders as to why I want to lose weight and reasoning with myself that yes I would enjoy a bag of chocolate, it would be enjoyable however that won’t cure the problem. It is merely just an instinct gratification and will just keep the cycle rolling.
It has been hard work but if I want to change the habit it will take on average 21 days *Gulp*.
In the end I will benefit and things will change. I just got to stick at it with all my willpower.
Cheers for reading X