I love linkies and think that they are a great way to connect. BUT dame they are hard work and yes it is lovely that you do get some comments in return. But over the past few weeks I have struggled and started to hate blogging, I know gasp.
Firstly, they are so dame time consuming. Ok I have realised I go a bit over the top with how many linkies I do each week and feel now is the time to cut back. I just constantly feel overwhelmed and bogged down by it all. It is bloody hard work to constantly keep on top and feels like I am on a convey about never having the time to stop and breathe. I be honest I have lost sleep over it which is really silly in reflection. This i because for me blogging originally was a void of something I missed that I lost. It was a time of great confusion and hard hitting on me and my family. I lost trust and faith. I needed something to help lift me out of a dark place and found blogging was a great distractor during my dark period. I digress but it did help give me some focus. But like always I am never one to do anything in moderation. I am easily get sucked in and then got lost and exhausted.
It is my own doing but I get so taken over by trying to please people especially when they remind me on Twitter or email. Then feel really feel guilty if I have not taken part in their linky that week. I know there is nothing personal and standard procedure but to me I can be too dame conscientious and really I need to sort out my battle in my own head.
I need to chill out, stop worrying and re-kinder my love for blogging. It has helped me tremendously and I don’t want to lose that.
The intrusive thoughts spurred on my ocd nature thieves form it and believe me I have some serious dark thoughts that probably no one even thinks about. So ludicrous that I can end up in this pathetic web of internal lies that is all my own thoughts but so addictive that draws you in when you are most vulnerable.
I have started to be more relaxed, blog when I want, link when I want and if it all gets too much step away and have a break. It is hard to see past the moment of where you are especially when you dealt yourself constantly. I need to learn to just take blogging with a pinch of start and remember to just enjoy the ride and fuck the rest of it.
So yeah this post has helped me think more clearer and write down some of my struggles. I am sure it is part of the process of working out what you want and how to achieve that. Blogging is such a massive learning experience that in the beginning you would never ever imagine. It has really helped give me confidence and a voice. So that is where my next step is going yo lie
I set no goals just having a way of blogging that suits me and my lifestyle. I l have learnt after reading so many different blogs on peoples opinions on blogging/blogging life/ goals/achievements and what I am coming to the conclusion is there is no is no right or wrong way of blogging but it is what you want out of it. That is beauty of blogging and why it is great as there is so much variety for different people. So the message kids is just enjoy the ride…
Cheers for reading X