When you are so knackered you don’t care what silly things Daddy does becuase you still going to sleep, so sod you!!!!
Cheers for reading X
Here are the ten things that I have enjoyed during the crazy month of August
1 I enjoyed a trip to the hills to ride my kite and walk around the beautiful scenery.
2 It was lovely to see my son pick his first school shoes. He was so overjoyed with the whole experience and is desperately waiting for next week to actually wear them.
3 We had a lovely trip to London for the day. We experienced going on the London Eye and walking on the glass floor, eek!
4 Monday was such a glorious day I took the boys to pick some strrawberries, rashberries and sweetcorn.
6 It has been lovely to spend some quality time with both boys and going out exploring.
7 We visitied the maze world and gardens. Obiviously the boys totally enjoyed getting mummy wet with the water pistols.
8 Me and my eledest had a lovely 1-2-1 time one day and we made bread rolls. Which for me is one hell of a challenge to do so I am really chuffed with myself.
9 During the summer holiday I have stuck at blogging and kept on top with all the linkies and comments. I like structure and it all has gone up in the air. It has been tough but it is a personal thing that belongs to me so I keep plodding ob. I am proufd of it as it is my little space, my hobby that I own!
10 Least we forget the sunshine, when it is not too sticky and eating ice cream pretty much sums up summer!
Cheers for reading X
The other day me and the family went on a venture for the day to London town. I be honest the thought terrifies me but we did it and had blast. The weather was a mix bag but to be fair most of the time it was fine for us. We drove down I don’t think I could manage the train which means we could take it easy without having to worry about getting to places on time and take a more relaxed approach to the day.
As we were driving into London we saw the beautiful Saint Paul’s Cathedral.
We did venture on to the tube, I am glad hubby was with me because it is a bit mind blowing with all these zones etc! I also have to mention the tube assistant was so helpful with making sure we got the cheapest and suitable tickets for us. Also we were on the bus slightly confused where the stop we wanted and a lovely women helped us, so belief it or not people are friendly and helpful in London.
Whilst walking through London we stumbled upon a piece of art with this tube of paint with flowers coming out of it, can’t be a bit of quirkiness to brighten up the area.
Stunning Tower of London.
Me and the boys. I like to point out that it was amazing the amount of urban parks outside at least two tube stations I passed, which I think is just brilliant for families.
awww the iconic shard, the tallest building in United Kingdom.
The Carnay Wharf the hub of business for London.
As tourists we had to stop at every famous building and take pictures. This is one is where the Mayor of London hangs out (City Hall).
Beautiful London bridge, we got there in time for the bridge rising.
The boys enjoying the walk across the glass floor, I however, was a little dubious with it being so high 42 metres above the River Thames to be precise.
My hubby was obsessed with the Walkie Talkie building (AKA 20 Fenchurch).
awww the manic mother smile 😉
My boy has been pestering me for months to go on the London Eye. Today was the day his dreams came true.
The views on the London Eye were breathtaking, I definitely recommend this attraction.
London at night is so beautiful or lit up and chaotic.
Le Shard in the evening.
The Gerkin (AKA 30 St Mary Axe).
The Royal Exchange.
Cheers for reading X
I love a book that you can lose yourself totally in and can’t wait for every opportunity to sit to flick through the pages. This book did just that it is a biography of Bryony Gordon who is a journalist for several years. She writes openly and honestly about her first hand experience of living with OCD and clinical depression.
As a suffer off both clinical depression and OCD I felt I could really identity with how Bryony expressed her experiences clearly, how out of nowhere something triggered causing the panic and obsession. Almost like someone flicking on a switch.
I feel that this is a honest reflection of OCD. It is also not your typical cleaning OCD but a main focus on the thoughts and how they influence behaviour.
As a mother I also found the area about motherhood particularly around pregnancy interesting and relatable. Especially when it is your first time pregnancy can be very stressful and make you feel very paranoid especially with the debate about whether or not you should or should not take anti-depressants and the effect that it will have on your new born.
I think it is an interesting observation mentioned in the book about the fact that Bryony comes from a middle class family that was fairly stable with not a lot of trigger to cause mental illness. It goes to show that money can’t pay for everything and that mental health effects all walks of life. The only good think about being wealthy is getting better care privately. The reason Bryony and her mum chose private over NHS is shockingly poor and a long waiting list to boot.Though she chats openly that it doesn’t matter as you still have to work hard to get a good therapist that understands you to help with your recovery.
It is a brilliant account of how OCD can feed off you when you are mentally low such as being in abusive relationship can trigger OCD behaviour.
Even if you don’t suffer from OCD it is fantastic way to help you understand better about the condition and help increase awareness for mental illness. Also how hard it is to find the right help and that if the Dr’s dealt with it sooner then it would possibly be not as bad as the thoughts are not been long lasted for years as a way to cope with life stresses.
The best advice Bryony concludes is cutting back on alcohol/exercise/eating healthy and just making sure that every area of your life is catered for can help reduce the OCD.
Bryony also reflects on her experience of Cognitive Behaviour Therapy and the power of thought. How CBT worked for her and now accepts that slips happen, OCD thoughts will always be there but accepting them as just that but not taking them as gospel is the biggest progress to live a better more fulfilled life.
A powerful message is that mental illness is not on the same level of importance of physical health. If you had a broken leg you would get it plastered. But mental health is still a taboo that is not talked about and at times shamed upon with stigma or being blasé with comments about being a bit OCD with putting clothing straight. It is much more then complex and intrusive then simply having things in a certain way.
Bryony set up a group called mental health mates where strangers meet up in London to walk and talk about mental illness.There is no demand to change just a place to not feel so alone and isolated. I think it is a brilliant idea and I wish there were more groups around in the UK.
In my personal opinion I think this is one of the best books I have read of a first account of living with OCD. It is not pretentious or glamorised, just trying to get the message out that whatever background shit happens. It is great to help get the message about what it is really like to live with OCD. I definitely recommend it.
Cheers for reading X
This month I thought for the first time that I would join this fun linky by You Baby Me Mummy
p.s. I am going to apology for awful decorating, long story short waiting for my perfectionist hubby to tackle that *sigh* ! Secondly, I am not a gifted camera holder and very basic and learning how to hold my camera. Though I may add that I finally masters the art of making camera shoot the right way, haha! Small steps people, small steps!
The TMI tag!
1: What are you wearing?
2: Ever been in love?
3: Ever had a terrible breakup?
4: How tall are you?
5: How much do you weigh?
6: Any tattoos?
7: Any piercings?
8: OTP? (One True Pairing)
9: Favourite show?
10: Favourite bands?
11: Something you miss?
12: Favourite song?
13: How old are you?
14: Zodiac sign?
15: Quality you look for in a partner?
16: Favourite quote?
17: Favourite actor?
18: Favourite colour?
19: Loud music or soft?
20: Where do you go when you’re sad?
21: How long does it take you to shower?
22: How long does it take you to get ready in the morning?
23: Ever been in a physical fight?
24: Turn on?
25: Turn off?
26: The reason I joined Youtube?
28: Last thing that made you cry?
29: Last time you said you loved someone?
30: Meaning behind your Youtube Name?
31: Last book you read?
32: The book you’re currently reading?
33: Last show you watched?
Cheers for reading X
Parenthood is a strange old thing where there never seems like a state of equilibrium. One minute it is so busy my head is spinning to the next when it is dame right mundane you are bored to tears.
The role of mummy is hard, dame hard in fact. I am so bored from seeing Mr Tumble for the umpteen time that I want to rip his face off!
If that is enough to deal with then comes creeping in MUMMY guilt when you are moat vulnerable. Why do I feel so guilty because you have constant messages tha you can’t enjoy every minute and at the end day sometimes it is a but crap. I do love being a parent and it is a wonderful experience but sometimes I sit in the bathroom and want to cry at 7am dreading the day ahead. Then I feel worse because I feel I am not good enough.
Where the boys are bickering non stop and I have to plan three meals a day, entertainment, drinks, potty training, washing etc day after day the same thing over and over again it can become tedious, boring and soul destroying. You lose a part of you, you feel like a robot and feel you are just a person looking after two small people.
If that isn’t bad enough having a partner who is laid back and takes everything in his stride gets right under my skin. OK, it is more jealous why do I worry so much when hubby can take it or leave it, you absolute bastard.
It is all too overwhelming, too much information, too much pressure, too much judgement sometimes I just want to say fuck it to it all!
It is so frustrating 😤
Cheers for reading X