This week has been a funny old week for me mentally. I seem to go through some weeks evaluating and reflecting who I am or what am I doing? Probably no dealt that I am over thinking everything and wonder what I could have done to be different.
Sometimes I get caught up with all the information I see online and yeah it is my choice, I go and click. It draws you in as there are so many wonderful and knowledge people out there. You start comparing yourself which I knowis natural but to what extend is healthy?!
I have an obsessive mind. I an autisitic and OCD so therfore more inclined to swing that way. Black and white thinking and trying to take it all in. Which then makes me go a bit crazy and mad at myself. Why do I take things so seriously, I need to remember why I blog. I have a choice in what I want to do, it’s not a job. I think it is because I feel the blogosphere is so competitive. People are all about SEO or moz links or some kind of shit like that. It sucks the fun out of blogging. I want to hear about people’s ideas or raw feelings not bullshit about numbers. It is the same over Instagram with people talking about themes and scheduling times to get more likes. So much for the spontaneous shots that get caught up in th then moment that are just fun to share. Nothing calculated. It feels like it is back in the playground sometimes. It saddens me that authenticity seems to be going and it is all business like minded people wanting numbers.
For me it was a void to fill in as I was going some heavy stuff in my life when I first started out. It distracted me from the pain and hurt. I really enjoy blogging on the whole so I am just going go with it, wing it. I’m going to try my hardest to not read into too much information out there. Just got to fall back in love and write.
Cheers for reading X
P.s. What is wrong with a hashtag on Pinterest. God I love a good hashtag 😉