Sadness

Hey readers,

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This week has been hard mentally. I have been really sad with thoughts over a special person that passed away. Still finding it really hard to accept and replying memories in my head. Why is it so hard, breaks my heart that I will never see them again. This person had two older children well adults in their thirties and there is nothing more then her wanting grandchildren but she never got that opportunity, I’m so guilted for her. Honest to God she was the calmest person and gentlist person. She did a lot for the community and ran girl birgrade and helped a lot of people through her time on this earth. She was very much hands on and loved children. That is one things I think is cruel she didn’t get the chance. I don’t know why I feel angry I mean she did what she is ment to as a human. She lived a life sixty plus years. But I can’t be clinical as I am too emotional, life is strange, makes me ask lots of questions this week. I wasn’t going to write my wotw because I thought I didn’t want to upset and be morbit. Changed my mind, this is my life in its raw in way and my weeks arn’t glossy or ideal they are up and down like a roller coaster. Some weeks are shit and life throws challenges. I want people to see my many layers, I’m venerable but it is the risk I take to being honest.
Anyhow it was a lovely send off.and.beautoful to see so many people come and say fair well.
Now back to normality and that God dame washing.
Cheers for reading X

The Reading Residence
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13 thoughts on “Sadness

  1. I am sorry to hear that you’ve lost a special person too soon. It’s only natural that you will feel sad, angry, lost and a little guilty. It’s nice that she had a good sendoff, it’s something nice to remember.

    I hope you managed to get on top of your washing (is there such a thing?).

    Hope you start to feel less sad next week.

    xx

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