Hey readers,

 Hope your keeping well. This week has gone so fast that I have only noticed that today is Friday, where does time go, I’m getting old!

Anyhow, to sum up my week in a word would be

Sometime in life you filled with what ifs and crippling guilt, mine mostly revolves around being a mummy and trying achieved this unreachable ideal that if I am honest I will never achieve. Not to mention the constant pressure of reading about this whole notion of appreciating your child every second of every bloody day, time is short and never get it back mentality. I will be honest here it’s hard so hard that I am so absorbed with trying to hold on to them moments that I lose out in just being and having fun with my children. The fact of the matter is my children will grow up and get older and that is something that is out of my control!. Yes it is sad but you know you have a problem when it titally absorbs you and get lost in that realm of fear and dread every single day. It is a horrible place to be when all you think about is time ticking by and the fear of the unknown. Did I ever mention that not being in control.
I went to a fire service open day with my son on Saturday and the battery of my camera was dead, I was even in the middle of dragging my son away to town to purchase a disposable camera as my thoughts were I need a photo and if I don’t get a photo my life will fall apart. I was stressed, anxious and generally just  plan miserable. Till I spoke to my husband who brought me back to reality in that so what if I don’t get photos just being with my son and creating memories is so more important. This negative feelings is not making me nor my children happy and what counts is to just enjoy the moment and don’t put pressure on your self. My son is so much more happier when I am relaxed and generally not giving a fuck, that is what he will remember the fun times, not a sodding photograph. It is so hard in this social media times to get bogged down with these stupid messages of pressure. What is most important is to accept your child will grow up and yes it is sad but it is more important to enjoy the time with your children. They will always have them memories and you can’t capture everything nor can you remember it, it is just not possible. So accepting that fact that and try to chill out take some snaps but don’t let it take you away from being in the moment. I need to remind myself that what is important is my children’s happiness. Letsd just remember pre digitital photograph when disposiasbke cameras were taken and that was that, not everything documented and nothing terrible happened. I certainly still cherish good times so it is not the end of the world.
Thanks for reading X

The Reading Residence

8 thoughts on “Acceptance

  1. Oh yes, remember when we were little? Most of our family photos are just Christmas and holidays, as that's when we got the camera films ready! Whereas now, every moment seems to be documented. I've been caught up in the needing a photo thing before, and it can take away from your enjoyment of the moment. Acceptance is a good word to go for, thanks for sharing with #WotW x


  2. You know, I read somewhere that the most precious things we can do is to take a mental snapshot of ordinary moments because these are the ones that really matter. Yes you'll have milestones but ordinary moments are just as important. I do know what you mean about always wanting to be plugged into social media somehow, but I sometimes make myself leave my phone/camera behind and just enjoy being with the kids. And you know what, it feels just fine …#WoTW


  3. I had something like this last Wednesday. My son has done something naughty in school and I was given a chance to shine as a mother if I handled the situation well but I reacted badly =( #wotw


  4. Thank you and definately agree you can get lost in thoughts about god dame pictures, though love taken photos but not to the point blessing about my children. Definately moderation is key, eek!


  5. Great advice and I should take a leaflet out of it too. I am awful for hiding behind the camera. While we have been in the states I have been trying my best to take in the moments mentally and not always through my lens. Once you get hooked it's hard to stop. I really am trying to slow down on that side of things and enjoy them being young. It's tough though. Thank you ever so much for linking up to Share With Me #sharewithme


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