Where do I begin with my word of the week, DIET!
Argh, the pain of the task, I have been messing around over a year and a half yo-yoing but the past few months I have steadily piled on the weight, *big sigh*.
I feel rubbish, I hate photos of myself. My clothes feel tighter, I dread showing my bare legs and not forgetting my hatred for clothes shopping. I feel more rounder and it frightens me what I see in the mirror. You know it gets to the point where you need to pull out your finger when even your husband tries to tell you kindly that he has noticed a change in my weight. No pressure there then.
I think I asm at the point where i want to want to take action and do something about my weight. I feel motivated, I know it is not going to be easy, I have such a sweet tooth and I will be honest I love junk food, oh the shame!
I am on my third day it is not easy as I am changing my thought processes and I am still dealing with my internal battle with wanting to lose weight or gorge on food. So most of the day I am consciously having a internal argument and reminded myself why I want to lose weight. I have lost weight before but I have continuously been weak when it comes to emotional binge on eating. I need to challenge this and change that behaviour. So far this is killing me and it is really challenging especially when you experience stress or tiredness I instantly want to reach out for food. However, as the famous quote goes ‘slow and steady wins the race’. I know I am not going be one of them fast losses as to be honest I love eating and I need the energy with two energetic children. Therefore, if I follow my calorie controlled diet I hope to lose a pound per week. I feel this is realistic and I know that is in my realms. I also when i am feeling down remember that in the past I have lost weight so it is achieveable.
The only think I now have to be is conscious of the fact I am not living on my own with no children, and I must not do the ultimate mummy sin that is finish the kiddies food, no matter how attractive it looks. Wish me luck on my battle to lose the pounds.
OK, I’m on my fifth day but yesterday had some amazing news which I don’t wanna disclose on the blog but it has resulted in a reduction in stress and worry for myself and in my home life. So, the last day or two I have not been good as I was celebrating but also my phone is mashed and my tablet can not link up with my fitbit. Therefore have been using as an excuse to slip up. But unlike previous times I would totally binge out and throw the towel in with my diet. I’m taking a step forward and continuing even though I have not been perfect I can still get up of a slip and keep going. I’m not expecting a lose on Saturday but if I maintain I would be happy. As next week I’m going make a much better in plan.
Cheers for reading.