Frustrating

Hey readers

My word of the week is:

I just had one of them weeks when things have been testing me and makes me think what is the whole point of it all really.

I went the other day to a place further a field from where I live so had to get the bus which is stressful for me in its self. When I get to the place this was on  a Wednesday morning post 9 am and oh my gosh the place was heaving full of oaps. I am not used to this environment so really struggled to navigate and manage the noise.  Typical I picked the busiest day of the week. Then I go do a bit shopping for odds and sods and then get to the till and find I have not got my bank card it is at home. I then panic at the to and have a panic attack. So that was frustrating because it took time to go there and come back.

The next thing that annoyed me was instructions and people making them clear meaning that was is expected is not being reached.

Anyway it’s half term holiday so we can have a jolly good rest from it all.

I hope you have had a good week.

Cheers for reading X

October tag

Hey readers,

I tried doing this for Tweetober however, I forgot and then I kind of gave up. However, I really like the questions so I thought I would do the tag as a blog post.

1) Favorite fall colour? My favorite fall colour would have to be mustard.

2) favorite fall activity? going for walks in nature when there is that crisp feel in the air then going home in the afternoon into the warm, bliss!

3) Favorite fall candle scent? apple cinnamon.

4) Corn maze or hayride? I think hayride would be much more fun then corn maze.

5) Sweater or hoodie? I prefer sweater much more comfortable though I do miss the hood.

6) Favorite fall clothing item? I love fluffy socks and they way they feel on my tootsies especially when it is cold or during a dark evening.

7 Favorite fall date idea? I like to snuggle under a cosy blanket watching a film and drinking hot chocolate when it is all cold and drizzly outside.

8) Favorite fall drink? I would choose a rare treat that I have now and again and that would be a cheeky Costa mint hot chocolate.

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9) Favorite thing about fall? Oh gosh so many good things. Darker nights, cooler weather, the colours of the leaves, fairy lights.

10) What are you grateful for? Though I don’t have a lot of money I am glad for having a roof over my head, food in my belly, feeling safe at home and my boys being happy (especially when they are giggling together).

11) Pumpkins or apples? Apples I loves a good juicy apple.

12) Favourite Halloween costume? I really love Beetlejuice so of course, it had to be him.

13) Favourite Disney villain? Not a massive Disney lover but if I had to choose a Disney Villian it would have to be Cruella de Vil from the film One Hundred and One Dalmatians. I chose her just because she kicks ass at being evil and she has a brilliant dirty laugh.

14) Do you like haunted houses? Yes, of course, I do they look so much fun.

15) Favourite Disney movie? Without a question of doubt would be Beetlejuice.

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16) Favourite fall memory? Feeling cosy in the evenings.

17) Favourite fall decor item? my Halloween fairy lights from Primark.

18) Favourite Halloween joke? I got so fed up with trick or treaters at Halloween that in the end I turned the lights out and pretended I wasn’t in. Forget the ships. My lighthouse, my rules…

19) Favourite Halloween song? Bobby Pickett Monster Mash.

20) Fire pit or fire place? I love a fireplace and getting cosy. Fire pit sounds like hell, lol.

21) Scariest Halloween memory? Seeing humans, lol.

22) Do you believe in ghosts? No.

23) Pretty little liars or scream queens? Neither don’t know what Scream Queens but not a fan of America type programmes that are saturated on Netflicks.

24) Favourite villain of all time? Hannibal Lecter.

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25) Would you sleep in a graveyard? I already have when I was 12. I love graveyards so calming and no f*cker is around.

26) Favourite classic monster? cookie monster.

27) Biggest fear? Humans.

28) What Halloween monster would you be? Frankenstein.

29) The creepiest story you have heard? Jimmy Saville.

30) Favourite Adam’s family member? Cousin It.

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31) Halloween plans? eat all the mother f*cking sweets.

Cheers for reading X

Defeated

Hey readers,

I have depression, however, I can still function fairly well most of the time. This week though I have suffered a knock back which has been hard to even get out of the bed to function. I wanted to hide because I just didn’t have the energy to fight. The only time I got up was for my children otherwise I felt numb and worthless.

Everything feels like a chore, having to find the motivation to continue was so hard it felt like a mental workout. My body aches because it has taken a battering from my mental torture inside my mind. I am frustrated because I fool myself that I am better when all I do is mask and try to continue.

I suppose with uncertainty my anxiety flares up making me hyper-alert to emotions and always on the lookout because I am not in control. I feel powerless and scared. I hate to think about my future because it saddens me.

My anxiety seeps into my dreams and I relive some painful memories. I don’t like it, I smashed all my stuff on my bedside cabinet not realising until I was awake to find the destruction.

People don’t realise how hard work it is. I know to change the record but it is true, you can’t escape your own mind, there is nowhere to run and feel safe. You have to get through it. It is one of the toughest things I have to do, living is hard work when you feel like a pile crap. I am consciously aware of how I feel. It is exhausting because I am battling my inner monologue.

Sometimes I want to give up a bit I don’t because I would never dream of doing that to my children. They are the only things keeping me going at the moment. I know it just an episode where I feel this crap and I know it will pass. it is just getting through this bad storm to see the other side. during this dark time, it is hard to believe that light will appear because it feels like never-ending.

I think one of the triggers is feeling threatened and not been heard. I feel the injustice and the accusation that has been flowing around. It sucks and hurts. Fear that what I need won’t be there and the fight for getting what I deserve is tough going. It wouldn’t have been so bad had it not been the situation encouraging the event to then turn the other way.

It is hard trying to fight and price something when really the person should open their eyes, but of course, money talks and who cares about being honest when really it all boils down to the number game, f*uck the individual.

I just feel so angered by life and just trying to prove my point. I just got to keep reminding myself it will pass and take one day at a time.

Cheers for reading. X

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Rollercoaster

Hey readers,

My word of the week is:

because my emotions have been very up down. I have felt frustrated with the school regarding my son and feeling like I am fighting a battle. I have been struggling with depression (but won’t depress you with that). I have also had some happy moments because depression is not always a straight line and mental health is very messy.

I was proud of my son this week as he received marvellous reader award from school. He hadn’t needed to be asked to read this week because he has been really loving Roald Dhal Revolting rhymes, he was hooked. I also dug out Dirty Beasts by Roald Dhal this week and he was hooked. He loves the funny dark side of tales, which is a very good choice in my opinion….lol.

Also, this week I and hubby had a checky date night during a school night, haha. We went to see Simon Evans at Loughborough. It was a good night and just h tonic needed for both of us.

Hope you have had a good week.

Cheers for reading X

#Aceforschool challenge

Hey readers,

We are now near the end of the first term and I as a parent have already had to deal with tricky stains from the lovely mud kitchen (an area full of mud and water) to art stains plentiful of them. Therefore I have to battle the challenge of trying to remove them tough old stains on the uniform.

Here are my tips on how to deal with a smooth school evening.

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Routine.

First, of all establish a routine as it is important to lay down the rules. First thing is first when we get home is to make sure that the boys take off their school uniform and get changed into there play clothes.

Drink.

I don’t know if it is just my kid in the fact that he needs reminding to have a drink. It is amazing to see the difference after they have had a drink and are much calmer. If I don’t remind my son he won’t have one. Luckily my youngest is the opposition but still it is good to keep on track of things.

Playtime.

Allow your children to have some fun and unwind. It took me a long time to not get stressed about homework and stuff. They actually perform much better when they are calm.

Check.

This is a mum task for me is to check the uniform for stains. It is amazing the array of different stuff that occurs on the uniform from paint to tomato ketchup they are there. My eldest also attend after-school clubs and one is netball, gardening and street dance. My son isn’t the sort to just sit still and he loves to get his hands dirty. Therefore school uniform has to be checked every day haha.

I tested out the ACE range that was sent to me from BritMums.

I used the stain remover spray to use instantly to hit them tough stains quickly and leave them in to soak.

Measuring cup from the bottle for the Ace for colours.

After some time of soaking the clothing in the stain remover, I then put the garments into the washing machine with 100ml of the ACE for colours laundry fabric stain remover. I find sorting out the clothing soon as I can then it will reduce the stain.

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Before spraying the target area with Ace stain remover spray.
After.

The combination of the spray and fabric stain remover really worked well at erasing them tough stains. I am very impressed.

Homework.

Making sure that there is time for homework is important because there is nothing worse than trying to do the homework on the morning of the due in date *ahem*.

Here is some detail of both the ACE products below.

Ace for colours helps make the laundry is a fabric stain remover that you can put on your laundry to help get rid of stains and eliminates odours. It keeps whites bright and colours shine.

Ace stain remover spray is a spray that you spray on the affected area of clothing and leave it to soak to help get rid of the stubborn stains. Perfect for school uniform which happens frequently when my boys come home with stains to show how much fun they have had at home.

Here is a picture of my boys together who don’t sit still for a minute 🙂

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Cheers for reading X

“This post is an entry for the BritMums #ACEforSchool Challenge, sponsored by ACE. Get help for all kinds of stains with the ACE Stain Helper. http://www.acecleanuk.co.uk/ or to buy head to your local Tesco’s, Morrison’s, Waitrose or Sainsbury’s.”

Choc Chick

Hey readers,

There is so much more choice when it comes to vegan food over the past few years. Though sweet snacks still seem to be hard to find. Well, stop the press because Choc Chick has released two delicious new vegan chocolate snacks.

Choc Chick plantain bites.

The first flavour of these new chocolate snacks is plantain bites – delicious little pieces of plantain covered 60% of raw chocolate. These snacks provide a source of fibre, no salt and no additives. All the ingredients are natural, non – GMO, pesticide-free, palm oil free, dairy free, gluten free, soya free send vegan.

Choc Chick Quinoa Pops.

These are crispy pops of wholegrain covered in 60% raw chocolate. Delicious raw chocolate treats with the wholegrain loveliness of quinoa covered in the finest Ecuadorian national articles single origin cacao.

My verdict.

These are great snacks especially when my sons come home they can have something that tastes good and not filled with ‘rubbish’. It is a great alternative for a vegan snack. It comes in a handy size so you can pop them into your bag if you have a day out. I prefer the quinoa pops as they have a crunchy texture and found the plantain bites a bit too strong flavour – but if you like really dark chocolate then you need to check them out.

I really like the design of the packaging and the fun play with the chocolate used for the hair. It is bright and cheerful.

The release date for these vegan chocolate snacks is 13th October 2018. If you want to find more out about choc chick click here.

Cheers for reading X

This is a sponsored content, I was given samples of the product. However, all opinions expressed are entirely my own.